Yesh
Yesh
a commmon denominator =ing affirmation
a verb with little left of its common sense
an acceptable perversion of menstruation
with embryonic 187’s lying quiet as W*A*L*L*F*L*O*W*E*R*S
when two (2) beats of a mixer femininely collide
looks as if a blond was just dropped on Saigon
in jelly shoes & fire hydrant soak downs
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Yesh
a nod, a hum bob, a droll in cosmic Levi’s
& star spangled stitches on mudflap pockets
starring ex-girlfriends incarcerated in pewter frames
like hOOlah-hOOp earrings & fourteen carat fingercuffs
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Yesh
is a hillybilly Jeezus rolling religious blunts
smoking up spiritual cannabis from inside a B-mer
while the congregation still passes plates of t(i)n percent
it is “girdlemamma mulatto bitches whose brains are red
jelly stuck between ‘lizabeth taylor’s shoes”
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Yesh
is BLACK poems, WHITE poems, Beats & Confessions
come either dull yellow marquis or two a.m. holy whisper
it’s mouth full of platinum grille or overbite dentures
it’s gawdawful truth of teeth on the way to the dentist
& ya know we all goin’ to th’ dentist!
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Yesh
is Saul Williams ripping seams from a starry blanket
restitching mad men back inside their Malcolm Minds
doubletalk & blues boomerangs in Jheri curls of midnight moon
through high tree afros & Channel 35 Kung-Fu theatre
it’s 4 carat headlights beaming through eyes of a rollerskate rink
it’s boxcarred, mamaborn, skinned-knees, sweetsonchild,
heartmadness, panebreaking, Parastroika, twilight whinos & me
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Yesh
is black licorice bowls & grandchildren & fragrant palms
& ashy synagogues, ghostconsciouscompost, & ole Tenderloin
it’s kaleidoscopic hips & boogaloo with hemp, it’s double Crown
& Coke & Coke & Cock & Cock & homemadeness in JuJu
imposters on Amorikan radio sipping dollar bills from cancans
smooth yellow taxi rides, Central Park horse dung, all-night gospel
radio pulled behind the black stallion of midnight & love affair
*
Yesh
is lyrical light over Greyhounds, life pawing to smell itself
dangercourse & introcourse ‘cause we all know one another too damn well
it’s womb & black trees & white trees populating synonymously
we all dirty when the coffin goes hush!
it’s Spookwaffe & copacetic time drifting thick in hourglass
black pianists tickling white rib piano keys over snifters of cognac
Vomit: the bigot snake crawling outta back of musty ole throats!
Apology: what’s left of a lizardquick tongue dry from no rain!
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Yesh
is the scream of people who want revolution & everyone
loves a good trend- it’s crazed ignorant hooligans & Howl
it’s Time when it’s time to fight when the kids of patience have been put to bed
it’s omm bomm ba bomm deep deep in jungle hearts
it’s destroyed statues & unspoken notes in instruments like the voice
it’s bay be why you leave me here & white eyes weeping
in dark oceans of SEE ~ it’s scars of missing self & heads
filled with nothing but jelly blood & a few missing teeth
it’s leaping blue shadows from late night television
it’s this wide leather cosmos along a white hot riveted sofa
arms spread wide as love & crooked as a hug
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Yesh
is the revelation, the perception, the rationale & the use
subway systems crushing breath in hollowed out tunnels
where the movement is more than on wheels dig?
syllabic organic calibrations of vocal distention
it is Bohemian rootlessness, quasi-defined sensibility
of knowing no matter how loud you get you still ain’t never been heard
with klansmen conking adverbs & erasing racists from shadows
it is nuclear force reasoning from black sacks of birth
it is hate whitey, hate hierarchical monsters beneath beds
it is Sisyphus Syndrome of Amorikan life & social peepa
it is Blackus Retrogradus in status quo-isms that gives me runs!
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Yesh
is holes where stars have fell & thumbs stagger midair for the count
it is mangy lionesses in late night dive bars with wicker baskets
for asses & a pocket full of monkey foreskins
talking ‘bout come to momma under the weight of Thunderbird
I swear she had black boobies even before the sun set her fire
with a round brimmed hat from a make believe Father
religion: genealogy standing on docks until a horizon steps up to embrace me!
it is the white-anglo loveless drip of sun on mother America
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Yesh
is the simple straight-forwardness of anger shushing me into P.C.
that I rummage closet floorboards for my space helmet
‘cause I cannot live no more on this stanky front porch!
the clocks have all gone cobblestone & there is oblique suckling
of my everlasting gawdawful last nerve. raise the bastard to flip-out
in the responsibility heaviness of horse manure & bullshite!
it is Ouende Ouende & tar boll weevils in the lungs of deddy
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it is criss the heart, criss the heart in corroding speech promises
it is a song that no one (especially not even the silly wind) will sing anymore
standing up, or on their knees, or peeking
into the dead of their own clasped hands
69 Dead Sled
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
Le Damnation de Faust
Le damnation de Faust
“Even as the swiftness of lightning ye have passed by the Beloved One, and have set your hearts on satanic fancies. Ye bow the knee before your vain imagining, and call it truth. Ye turn your eyes towards the thorn, and name it a flower. Not a pure breath have ye breathed, nor hath the breeze of detachment been wafted from the meadows of your hearts. Ye have cast to the winds the loving counsels of the Beloved and have effaced them utterly from the tablet of your hearts, and even as the beasts of the field, ye move and have your being within the pastures of desire and passion.”~ Baha’u’llah
The shirsh of her skirt against the stillness of the air around me makes me think. She wears a pinwheel skirt with ling pleats running the length of her shape. To my eyes, she looks like a pixie with creamy wings feathering against her bell jar curves. She is transversing the long iron arm of the bridge to where I am. Her essence makes me sweat inside of my own skin and I grow up through the stony ground of my own skin as if some wick through a waxy self. She strikes me with her eyes and we look into the menagerie of one another, as if we are heads of mistakenly separated eyeballs. I feel unpeeled, unveiled in her glances and I cannot help the electricity along the strands of sight between us. She is wearing a jade pendant on the curve of her breasts and I am lost to it. It bounces playfully with her gliding while my eyes do the same motion in the front of my skull. The sun glistens overhead, shining down against her nape and her pulse is wild in the cage of her throat. The lunch traffic jeers the pedestrians. Pigeons are stuttering along the sidewalk, through the wiry fences of table legs. There are ghosts here along the riverside streets, dissipating memories in the shop windows, wraiths of more ancient faces in and out the oversized letters there painted.
Love is the purgatory of muffins, the paradise of crisp bagels, and the hell of fresh crimped bread ends and croissants. The shop owners watch over the faces of the visitors, the merchants over one another in the satisfaction of their touchable hell. They peddle smiles in glass windows to the beautiful girls passing by and nods of gentlemanly gesture to the lads. After all, it is the responsibility of the merchant folk to make of heaven this effective reality. The men crane their necks along the canal faces smooth as stones sunning in the flood walls and jaded in the marbled perplexity of pigeon shite. The women turn their noses under the stench of fish screening from the water, posing in their perfumes with the restaurants and flowers. Love is the balloons jostling in vivacious colors over pallid women’s faces. Happy are the children when they grasp the strings and hellish when they want for it. Even their little minds suffer in the purgatory of second thoughts, I think to myself, as they run in hypnotic angles and zigzags along the sidewalk. I am certain as they grow, the steep mountains of idea will grow less unkind and yield to them as they shed the skin of faithlessness that holds them and the fear of motion that suffers in them.
The awnings have their shadowy lines with rods pushed through, expanding color over color, sunlight stabbing over sunlight. Love is nonetheless, a café where the wind is the open window to this myriad of a promiscuous scenes, causing my head to tilt in lover’s cant. I sit out front of, this cathartic café, writing love letters in a cryptolect to a woman who would no longer have me. I cannot enter inside the sanctuary of her penmanship and her blue lines now. She is no longer for the single-minded and her words are stricken from the jargon on the human heart. The scent of the bakery canoodles in my nostrils and my head foams in a hunger that effaces the thought of letting her go. This is where we met so very long ago now, in the feverish umbrellas of concrete buildings. There are brick scales along the underbelly and the alleyway. I can feel the swelter of breath on the back of neck. There is a freshness that I cannot place wherefrom on my lips pluming from the grottoes of wine glass and nectar carafe. Even if she had spoken, I would be caught outside the constructs of a sentence and the words would be frail mumbles of penance. I would have to shave a word from the back of my throat just to say anything. I am sure she is the kind of lover that would simply quote the conversations of ancient philosophers in a way only a dogmatic religion could accept. As for me, I would be left reserving her as final language in a fallacious pragma, caught in a soul sleep until judgment comes.
Her words hook me, although she hasn’t spoken, and I can feel the tines pushing without mercy into my ears. Her calves hang in her stockings as if they were bulging eyes of Koi snared in shrouds of fishnet. They wriggle when she strides against her ankles and are held in by her lean bones. There is rhythm from a cosmos in her hips when she turrets her eyes onto me. My head is helpless in their penetration. The pigeons flutter in slow motion at her heels as if release doves for the trinity followed by one more. From this constellation of nails in the park bench, my eyes are lopped off easily as dandelion heads. My sight is a dangling retrograde. My tongue is swollen as a winter doorframe. So my eyes fueled in the rage of glances and our exchange of mildly damp words, make her mine for the eternity of the next few hours that we manage to skim from the ordinary day. The clock lies with an insomniac ticking ever awake, a paraplegic hung to the wall of shadows turning away from the dying of the light.
She wears a linen blouse that is so sheer it shows her apple blossoms of breasts so perfect. I love her breasts as a worship of them, like the ancient Norsemen did of cave succubus. I could rub clay on them or off of them to make sculptures of them for human vanity to share in my repose. She always catches me peeking somehow, as if her extra sensory is alerted to my every movement. I feel her walking up against my skin. The blouse covers half of her thighs and I watch them turn over one from the other, these ginger spits gyrating through the coals of this metallic room. She knows how she kills me. A knock comes from the door. It is not a knock, more a shuffle with a knock on the end of it, as if something has fallen. I cannot think straight with this headache. I effuse in the caginess of my boxer briefs and billow toward the door. I should have known I would receive a package today. I could not think of anything except Melusine now.
“Artaud?” the postwoman asks in a manner befitting a tramp, not the proper sinner like my Melusine. She was striking for a postal service worker. We had spoken on occasion and I believe her to be sweet on me, although for the sake of anything holy I cannot place why. “Artaud?”, the last voice calls out again before I can hear the gruff shuffle of boots descending the steps and fading off to a blackness somewhere else.
She is still talking however I cannot hear a word spewing from her greasy mouth. I manage to brush her intrusion aside with prevaricated language that she accepts and dutifully yields.
With the door closed, my hand pulls the window drape back by its hip roll to peek at the postal woman’s arse. These convicted eyes stare a little too long imagining the sweeping of her hips as if golden reeds in the sensual wind of our motion. As they examine the canvas in mail carrier hips, Mel’s hands reach around my waist into my elastic waistband. My head bobs limp on the spinal cord as she drops the bell jar shapes of her hands into the band. I feel her breath warming against the blades on my shoulder. Her hands massage in slow, deliberate circles of kneading and my body becomes a coffyn easily molded. She has small baker hands that squeeze tightly. A moan simply falls out of my lips.
“You like her don’t you?” she aspirates in my ear. She lets her words linger a bit on my lobe. “We could have her. We could tie her with our shoelaces and you could watch me ravage her. We could pour delectable sauces over her bones and seductively lick them clean. See how much I love you? See how much I want you in me? “
I am rarely surprised by the words Melusine constructs sentences out of and her choice of them is always direct and bold. My body stiffens with sweet language as if it was some aphrodisiac and she knows she can play me this way. Just as I was thinking about turning around to defend myself, her nails scratch grooves into my thighs. I go numb. She has delicious red spades for fingertips and I am soft as loam in her hands. The box, think about the package. I am in a sort of love, what else could I do except subvert to her whims. I am as useless as any other man would be when confronted with such a devilish apparition. I allow her to swaddle me for the ones she can no longer touch. For the little digits she misses so very much and that I hold dearer than she knows. When she leaves, she flings my old button-down across the leather arm of the chair, and smiles saying she can no longer write me. She winks and says to keep my eyes on the mail slot in the door for her posts. I shiver in gooseflesh as I cannot wait to receive whatever she would send.
Weeks go past and the shakes take over, the grass grows too tall to sift through the mower and the flower heads are held fastened to the ground by frail green strings. The trees are coughing in the lateness of the season, spitting up orange and red on themselves. There are a few bugs left marching in the tenements of grassy beds as the hoariness begins to stubble out. This skin feels rubbery these days with splotches and purpleness in ways inhumane to the atomic body. Nonetheless, I can only watch the spiders from my glass, licking their lips and packing for warmer days. My skin is cinder-like and a scoriae of infections and I fear I will not receive her words in time. My legs wander off to the terrace in varying degrees of purging with the weight of this bag of bones on my back pushing my eyes downward. I scorn the bumblebees in the framed wall, the mulatto trashman with his mild and silent wave, their faces my bent eyes will no longer allow me to see. This world is breathing just outside the glass. If there is a place any further away for it to retreat, I beg it please don’t go.
Her first letter arrives by post today. I must have some defiantly mad, wandering eye as my eyes seem sewn closed despite the midafternoon sun warming my face. They rearrange things into view with some effort. It is almost as if her eyes were clipped to mine, her white paper an animal lead and me a weakly trained oaf. I want that letter, I need that letter. These letters are unsolved pieces of a broken heart. They are tiny galaxies forming inside of me where a woman should be. I feel as if I am creating a star in me, a burning growing hotter and trying to keep it in control. What will it say? I wonder aloud. The Mozart drowns out the sound so if I speak anything at all, even he will not hear them. His allegro dances louder into this romantic fool’s head. I am moronic for these notions and I fully accept the fate lain before me, however they exist nonetheless. I should call them ‘romonic’ instead. It suits. I never really had a successful love. I only know the ones that either leave or cheat in the blindness of wandering to someone else’s lover, so the simple notion of a woman loving me for what she knows is searing, explosive. Why do the hearts that cleave from the chest ramble in haste at the urging of grace to find new green? I’ve had the greatest sex of my entire existence with one lover, the greatest arguments with another and the most arrogant ignoring with yet another. True, there are times I hold them and caress them, same as they have with the reflection of me. I have not always been so awkward as a lover as I have been penitent and unjust as a relation.
She writes this letter in her old language. I open it and it becomes illegible to me. This is as foreign as the books she carried that day. There are little characters that I can recognize as Asian however that is the extent of my linguistic skills. Why would you send me a letter in Chinese? When we spoke, she knew I didn’t speak any language but English and Spanglish. She sent me this thing knowing full well that I cannot read it. That shoots an ache into me making warble of my equilibrium. I have waited for months for any word from her, any contact and this is what I receive. You’re slicing me into little pieces my bunny. I have to know what they mean. There was a softcover book as well as a small candle. The book is Some Prefer Nettles as it is captioned in English, although written entirely in Japanese. It is titled Tade ku mushi. It is also in a language unbeknownst to me. I scour the internet for a translation and after two weeks of gluing scraps of printed words from a translation website, I give up and buy the damned English version. Turns out it was about a hairy tit. The crooked language fetters my eyes and my hands tremble in the idleness of the keystrokes. My shadows will remain captive in this motionless place as long as it pleases the justice. Ah, this is madness!
I smile at the cover of the envelope of this new post, making mental love like liquid fire and glide into the carpeted den through the foyer. There is a hunger of questions in me and senseless answers in this letter of how I should live and directions to follow on the slowness of dying. This white paper casket is filled with my bones and the ink smudges on organs. I know the impatient vein that yearns to be plicked is one postage stamp away. I live in the present, the slow motion moments of when starving lovers must eventually meet. There is not much of an appetite anymore and the cans of beans mock my eyes from their cylindrical spaces in the cupboard. The cupboards are dusty in their wooden skeletons from the lack of food no doubt. The windows are darker now with reflections of bony face, in a veil of jaundice skin and eyes sunken to egg crates or rings that have suddenly lost their jewels. Were anyone to see me, to surely read the lines of distraction across this face, there is no doubt they would no longer see the man in the seediness before them. The once round orbs that flanked the once lean and fastidious nose are now dry wheat sacks, with the nose no longer sprayed in the sanctity of acknowledging fragrance. The vibrant flowers outside tapping against the window are husks of straw nowadays and the grass seems to no longer sing in the grievous of early winter wind. They who filled wild in the spring green leotards, leaping past trees in their young appetites are now only held alive live to remain patient for the secret translations of next season’s intimate heart. My hands try to remember how to treat the envelope as they massage the corners that have been dog-eared through its travel overseas. The hands always feel the solace before the severed head.
I could never throw the books away, or any of her gifts. I could however I couldn’t due to the ache in my ropy knuckles, the raw bones washed smooth as stones in this affliction. That is what someone who is separating from the very self says. There they lay, strewn as fat as irrecoverable cats along the rim of the wooden dining room table, and there along the wooden masked mantel over the fireplace. In hast a few are shuffled over the toilet tank that can be read in the drunken stupor of bowel movements. If this conjoined memory of mine can manage a solitary moment it is with her there in the stall, in our penumbra and aloneness. My eyes fantasize about our nakedness, and writhe like those Koi, now in orange towels by the tub, by the shimmer of scaly candlelight. The wicks are low lit as ignis fatuus over this foggy sensation of thick-headedness in my skull. These pallid hassocks for fingers pour two crystals of red wine and float rose petals as a votive in the bell jar on the nightstand. Sandalwood bath salts arouse the air over the gaping wounds of pipes and carpentry that is this house. There is a palmetto lonely and slipping further down into the porcelain surrounding of the tub. Its legs sprawl in fumble, resume the scratch toward the crest and the white wave of slipperiness washes it back down even further. The dumb thing shuffles off to the side to try another slope of equal grading and there is a laughter that chides from my mouth. A giggle hangs like dry spittle on my lips then as the bug careens down the side of the tub, it falls out over the tongue and spills onto the world kicking and screaming.
Her quiet shape leads me to autumn circles of the pond, to the leaves frozen in late season and with drifts of bloated hands she guides me closer to the edge. There comes a glow up through the murky water, which gives way to the dark shape rising beneath. Inside the bare cupboards, a mousy infestation weaves its tiny red eyes in and out of the shadowy waves. It rolls its eyes in the dark like a pixie wandering in a white paper bell jar. The counter holds up my shape so that the mouse can see through me, the real me and forgive me. I suppose I owe both of us that much.
She creates a craving in me, and she says has to have me from the inside, completely and wholly without ever having speaking a tangible word. My pulse is a heartbeat away from the ice forming on the radiator so I read a letter to keep my pulse warm. Letters from her are more than a kiss along the seal, they are mingles in my soul. Another giggle extorts in the remembrance of our silent orchestras in the dark, our stolen maneuvers from the shadows where we lay separate by lambent graves. Each wet seal of the stamp is a tangible, speaking purse of lips between the absences of lovers. I miss her already. A true love letter from a woman is best written to the man she is betraying. My fingers would come to know that the peel of a layered time slowly burns back to the ashy rinds of the human lust from whence it comes.
Her breath rushes the mouth of the envelope in gulps of freshwater over me and I am cooled in the ebb of thoughts my eyes have yet to share. Choking in the washing, my lungs are set afire in the sighs that escape the gluey lips. The ears of the soul hear her laughter lingering on the caramel flavored straw we still share at the café. I stare for long instances about the envelope, measuring the wrinkles, the stamp and the postmark with acuity. Will she reveal herself anymore here? A piece of her has fallen away from her mouth and into a post, traversing the wide girth of ocean between us. In this hour of the wolf, we sit. My eyes gaze through their jaded lens and wonder when our electric bodies will at last rest. Mel, in her dress dripping from her, like melted ice cream, her licorice red lips and her poured molasses eyes, sits across the keyboard, with her legs folded from the hip. Neither of us speaks aloud. The air condensates on her glass as she sips her tea in small breaths. She exists I think with a sigh. Our eyes may have plea-bargained from across the centuries, however in this moment, we meet. It is as if through the angular momentum of our past insoluble lives, we have formed the center of a star in this very white hot moment of now.
I do not know how I arrived to know her, yet I do. My imagination suggests that we met on a Caribbean Oceanside, with her silvery breasts teasing me in Europa’s fierce moonlight. She sees the shadow of Zeus, looking out over the sand. Her hips lure him, swaying as white as fertile cows in fields of India. There is a bungalow, with cross-hatching shade and the walls are aching with insomnia. There stretches between the sea and an armament of the stars a plaster shape of two lovers. The form changes to the softness of a felt black bull and comes silently to her feet.
My lover Coniglio, I feel exhausted in my days and feel pinches of
a knife in my midnight underbelly. So much that I can no longer
talk to the people I pass or work with. I long to be touched just once
more by your hand. Maybe in some strange existence, you will
have sent me a postage with your fingers inside? I would exchange
these toes for your kindness. You must come back, come back.
I swear to be kinder if you would only answer quickly. My time
Is short and I cannot remain past evening.
Ever, Melusine
A sigh drips heavy as syrup. A cock leaps as if a straining tiger through the paper cage. The brevity in her words is irrelevant. It is a phantasmal anagram that is our relationship. Standing along this wide precipice of a gaping chasm is the panting breath of a lover quelling up into flared nostrils. These eyes read the puzzles aloud, in private, in glints, over toast and coffee, and with the thrush of the remaining blood coursing in me. What little time that is left is going to be spent, prefers to be spent in the hollow crux of her letters. The shut-down had started and according to the doctors who verily prod at my bones, there is nothing personified of the bitch that is hope. She has run her course, her eyes sunken in shame of not answering my prayers and in defeat she is striding the back of a magnificent bull to another life. What is left here, in clothes turned inside out, burying blades in the ground, blade facing up is a mad, penitent lover. Being no longer able to defend myself, I can only succumb to the sandalwood scents and the rose hips in the glade of the tub. What else is there in the curve of dying arms?
My sweetest Lute Mel, come lie in the curve of me and rest now. Rest in
what touches I have left. Whisper to my ears that I am yours, bite my
cheek because so I know you are near me. I feel you sucking on the red
gumballs that are my eyes these days and rolling them back into my own mouth
so I know our lips have struck. I fear that our time is thinning and when
your husband returns, I will sell the bulk of my clothes, to rid my senses
of you. The post is readying your package with Styrofoam and my fingers. My
last touches must be of your cheeks and your thighs.
Je Taime, Artaud
There is very little red in my cheeks these days and I wonder if the blood in my fingertips will remember me when they are with her. I am faint as a wolf whimper in the distant pine and as opaque as concrete mortar. My insides are turning to outside. When I puke, I swear they are rhinestones along the porcelain rim of a great chalice. In silence, my eyes see her figure in the fresco with Saints at the feast of Christ. The plaster in the apartment is older than yellow now, much too old for this sickness. It bulges in wet surges around the cornice over the windows. The paint is no longer the tone of wasabi green first strained in the paint buckets. There no need to tend the place where there has not been a visitor in months. The end of a writer is slow as rot in the skull, as rusty as nails wedges between toes. The swirls of room light become faded and wispy thin, as me I imagine myself looking. All my head can think of is her body. All these eyes can see is our moments in a bungalow, burning low but still lit somehow. Melusine, my Eucharist, I say, my most precious. These trembles are worsening however I can still tell the difference between the morphine and the memory can’t I?
The chinky flap on the post pocket door makes a familiar jingle. This toad of a heart inside my chest leaps into the stillness of the apartment air. I think of a night of gathering fruit in woven baskets or frayed hemlines of her flowing linen dress. She comes to the doorway, in the shape of O, blindfolded and breathing heavily. Her nostrils flare and her breasts red as roses on thorn bushes. She comes to meet me but we do not touch one another. We force ourselves not to. We are two combustible ends in a room of fuel and electricity. Instead, we encircle the other, eyes in a lock and I retrace her toes with ghosts of fingers. I allow her hands to take a switchblade, a pig gutter, to my buttons and seams. They come a part in loose scrolls of what used to be clothing. My head spins in a dizziness that no other lover has bound to my thoughts before or since our meeting. We are two naked apparitions, her in her linen veil and me in my wretched skin.
Her fingers make motion to plick the mushroom head of my penis, stirring an ache in my lap. Still, we did not touch. My eyes chase the shadowy curvature of her ears, to her eyes, down the pouting points of her mouth. These eyes remain locked behind the visions as if they were convicted cowards, never moving. They watch the crème wash over her shoulders and linger in a spider web in taut spots of a lover. This excites me. Fingers tremble as her back arches in the slight chill of the room, crème against warm skin. These finger bones play her back like fingerless white keys along a piano. I ease up behind her, a raging cock probing in the wet air between her thighs. Our skins are far too thin to touch. I could explode in the intoxicating cognac of her spilling the wetness from the rim of her onto my cock. The closer we become, the tauter the strings become, pushing against our opaque forms. I reach for an apple in the basket on the nightstand. It’s as if the apple has the only color in the room and glistens brilliant as street lamps in the Rosse Buurt. Her lips pull around the apple in a trained elasticity and I moan haplessly. She takes the time to playfully tease the flushes of skin along the core of the apple for my pleasure. There is a crack showing blackness in the guts of the wall. The white shell of this hollow room is frail as skin and I feel something in my bones ache. This plaster between us cannot last.
I hold my distance from the envelope, if for no other reason than for the chasteness of the moon, slowly drawing its drapes in the bungalow night. I smell her sweet neck and know I have my nose against her. Somehow, someplace she holds my nostrils close to various places on her body. I melt in the aroma of her over me as if her letters are candles of her hips and thighs. She sits on my keyboard again with her legs wide as rose petals. She touches herself, head hanging back in the blackberry strands of her hair. Her jaded eyes blossom open to me, her licorice lips twist words I cannot make out. She moves her mouth in her old language so that I cannot hear her. My eyes steal glimpses of her nakedness and I move between her thighs to meet her. There is a bunny in a wolf’s mask atop the desk, in tenements for heels that rise high as her arse. Her scent reaches up to meet me. This is a lover’s life, a silent seduction in the chambers of our separating worlds.
At first, our words rouse shapes into letters without the word love, and although neither of us will ever express the sentiment, I find lucidity in the thinking that we are madly so. We never penetrate the veil surrounding her marriage and the frailty of my condition. We have become content in the letters we write between us, the bits we package and receive via postman. We exchange letters with every ounce measured, every gram of limb examined and quantified. This is the penultimate cremation of a lover’s self, to give freely and wholly with no remorse. There is no sadness or reprieve in the taking of one’s flesh and presenting it as canang sari to the gods for which we thank for generosity and grace. I give my hands freely in a basket with white rice and colorful palm leaves. I no longer need them if I am to be without her to touch.
She responds to my letter, with a bamboo tray woven and including the fingers from her right hand with her toes. The tray is strewn with Frangipani flowers in brilliant yellow petals, arranged with five orbed, berry-like toes. The digits look plastic and purple although alive with color back dropped by the clipped buds. My eyes quell up with this gesture from my lover. The fragrance of the Frangipani plumes silently in the room and lasts for days. I smile and think I will make a soap of the digits so I can bathe in her while I can.
Some days, in the pangs of hour-less nights, I swear I can feel the tender rush of thighs or the moistness of her vagina shivering over me. There are phantom limbs where she sits as if never stolen by grace, cupping the ripeness of her apple breasts, despite my whole hand unrecognizable. I know that it is a farce to think we can go on, because there are only hot flashes now digitizing at the ends of my white bandages. I can feel the lukewarm palms that cup her breasts, her nipples twisting between their tips. I can form the relative shape of the cupping motion, with my eyes closed, except on the one hand. I touch myself in the lonely corners of the apartment and I keep my eyes closed in the shadowy fantasy that becomes her innervate body.
My sweet, my satanic fancy, I can only think of us making masterful
and bloody love. My drizzle is your ganache. My red
lap seeps in our loving pulse. I bleed on you my lover. I drizzle
these tainted fingers and tuck them between my thighs. Rock me
to sleep my my silent tiger, whoosh your tail against my pierced
labia and tuck yourself into me. There is where we were born,
millenniums ago and there is where you will find the lensatic
needle to find me. No matter how the reflection alters the mirror,
no matter how queer the limbs attached will be, ours is fever red.
With blazing breath, Melusine
She knows how to love me and I fall to the sheets exhausted with every inch of fever she possesses. She is an outline on Monday that blows every word out in a fire ball across my keyboard come Saturday. She is vain imagining, a stalk tall as the midafternoon I know as truth. I stutter rampant into the mirror at a ferocious stranger staring back out to the room, alabaster white in nakedness with a smirk across his lips. His glint side to side like minnows caught in a black fishbowl. I roar out loud in laughter. My eyes drill diamond spikes into the glass and I can no longer see with acuity. I feel her straddling thighs smooth as eggshell. She climbs on to all fours atop my writing table. Her hair is draped over her shoulders and she tosses it about as if fine linen makings of a scarf. The wispy tips of her hair rush the air as if a thousand hummingbirds onto my exposed nipples. I write free of clothes these days, free of distraction, free of consciousness. Her face comes through the pearl drops of rain ticking against the window now. The pavement is a slick black tongue lapping in the wooden hollow mouth of window. My eyes watch the rain bounce to and away from the glass like crickets in a jar. The days fall to a hushing darkness and sleep comes in waves of stale drugs.
There is a Pan Yuliang nude that moans and moves when there is no one there, and is tacked as ingrates to the wall for inspiration. They tangle in the water of writhing arms, not being able to make out the legs from the torsos. These desperate, tired eyes watch their movements as they bathe along the warm summer stones with the waterfall weeping as the willow. I know that the nothing that is there is the same as it always has been. Still I see the full figure of her shadow on the wall behind them. She whispers baby as only she can, stretching arm over arm to the Jasques Brel vinyl I have spinning on the record box. Her eyes explode with the momentum and a passion and my cock is a phantom gorging her. I watch the tilt of her arse sway like waves breaking away and toward me. I can smell the jempiring on her skin and the must from her wetness. She is ripe with a distress that has to be taken. The letters are less frequent and still no one knocks for me. My door stands still and quiet as a casket hinged upright. The wooden fringe and the copper lock keep me.
She never mentions her husband in her letters and I never ask. It was how we have existed all these months. I awake to her ataxic trembles in my skin. My eyes oscillate to keep rhythm. We exist, her and I, two rights in the space time continuum, to bend the stars with the natural affinity of us. She rearranges her figure atop my table again, where she sits directly in front of me. I stammer over the chair that plays tricks and moves when I am not paying it mind. All I see is her face, round and pale as a moon. She sits with her legs crossed then slowly she pushes them open with her hands, resting her feet into the arms of the chair I steady myself into. I reach out with a phantom touch to place my fingertip on her nose ever so gently yet land against her high cheek. She locks me in and I allow her hips to display at my eye level and I notice a pearl of a piercing that hanging from her clitoris. I survey her every chance I can, being a man hapless and blurry with inoculating love. I measure the circumference of her breasts, the length of her thigh muscle and count the freckles along her clavicle.
After what seems like years, I have to know that she exists as we never leave the room and the flowers are now wilted. What is a mind that plays games and dances in the broad arm waves of a monkey? She has clear and sure knowledge that I am a tangible bag of bones, yet I am ever skeptical of her reappearing to me. I am growing frail, my eyes near cataract now and my legs fail to do their work beneath me. I spend my days restless as a lover to her, knowing that surely I am of little satisfaction to a woman fine as she is. I may have been good looking enough in my youth however the seclusion of my writing combined with the onset of this obsession, left me vulnerable and acting mostly as an oddball. I wouldn’t fit in the local bar circles, meaning her friends who did on rare occasion want to meet me, would think of me as an invalid source of man. They would certainly mock me as the loner with the pint and I suppose they would never consider whether I have a functional penis or not. I am off limits to the debauchery of bar wenches now, answering to the beckoning of Melusine.
The last letter comes today. My veins boil in gasoline and my body aches. My legs are strained and thinner than when the first letter arrived so long ago. I feel the surge again in my lungs and the breath growls in my head. She will bound right up as a fairy does in the moats of Scotland, introduce herself and we will be inseparable thereafter. There are no more digits to give and perhaps she knows I have nothing more to give. Perhaps in that fresh idea, she has taken a new lover to exchange parts with. No, no, no… of course not, she has sent me this letter hasn’t she? I am her tiger and she remains my congilio. That’s how a system of sound works, she would say. I have given everything to love her. My hands have been cold without the warming kindles at the nub. My face smells of camphor and bandage gauze tinged of almond extract that is hardly noticeable. My pot belly and flabbiness has eroded to bony ends of strawberry bursts. I see lesions on my face and neck and wash them daily with soap from her hands.
We can offer the other no better truth than a valid excuse as to why we choose to interrupt our infinity to cross quantum affinity in this way. I was flattered in the earliest stages after our bungalow days and hold myself dumbfounded with fever in these latest. She tells me she has become arranged with another man. She is relocating to the southern parts of Spain. I did not recall if I knew the city. She writes that she ever loves me and requires a last piece of me to hold in the hallowed bell jar of our romance. I didn’t ask anything more, I didn’t need to. My time is phosphate and this woman inflames my bones like cheap matchsticks. Our letters have become the only solid form of our accretion we will now ever see to fruition. I know what I must do so that she can be free and love him as she has loved me. I cannot allow her to suffer this way. What part of me is what you seek my lover? What part shall I remove in order for your ears to hear what I speak here now? My head is spinning in the green of the wall now and my temples thrum in a rush that is new to me. I see now the pallid mask in the lavatory glass is righteous in the knowing that it can fulfill the last wishes with the cosmic rights to a body quickly turning away. I pen my last letter, curving the letters over in the air. I believe the night wind is on me as I see a faint light on the wick. My eyes are dimming and my heart settling, calming to hands making ready the postal.
I miss you my beautiful lute. I miss your taste that I never have tasted. I
miss your toes that I am guilty of rolling on my tongue until they became
too rotted to pleasure my taste buds with. The ripeness of jasmine
was replaced with the decay and eventuality of intemperance. I am sending
you my heart so that can feel the rightful way a lover should.
Consider this gift the last marvels of explosion this cosmos could muster and
in its decay the reminder that I will not be much for much longer. I am
losing strength in the altitude of not having felt you or quenched my flame
in you in far too long. You have my fingers as wicks and so too these eyes
as windows to the stars, so we may forever make love beneath the same brilliance.
Fading into You, Artaud.
As I lick the salmon tipped flap of the envelope, I bow my head in the privacy of my own body. I imagine reproducing every oral sensation that her and I have managed all this time. There has been no one come to my door to check health, life or postal of me. I will leave the jar of this place and fetch the courier come tomorrow morning. I am weary now and my dreams fuck in screams of French jazz and slow gyrating trumpets of Miles Davis. She did not know me in her beginning, nor I her; however as abandonment reminds me, we know one another through submission. There are no greater questions than when death muffles the pinging echo of a last pulse in an ear. There are no white lilies marking the gravestone of this withered shape. Eyeless and without fingers, I am lain quietly to rest in the chasm between her thighs. She has become midnight, the hour of the wolf, with her low lamp into the bogs of my fatality.
In that one room bungalow, the moon so fierce, where we had made bars out of coconut trees, we will meet one last time in our human sleep. She in her deathly corset will remove a gutting knife from her pocket and slide the blade skyward to expose the silver. Her breasts will tease in virgin glints and I will rouse in her salty air. Do this in remembrance of me. This is my blood, my covenant to thee. My eyes are too blurry to rearrange shapes however I can still hear the piano speaking in Franz List’s Feaux Follets. This is Le Damnation de Faust. We will never need language so it is quieter now. She moves into my space, never touching my skin, as is the way we always make our love. There are flicks of fireflies ebbing along the hillside outside the window. The walls are moving in a warble with time, the clock tells me so. The hinges of the windows are gone now I think and the stars shine bright for me. They remind me of piano keys and her atop of the glossy rain slicked mantel. I can make out the sea almond trees shirshing again and shimmering like roof tile as if we were just meeting. There is a rustle in the brush from the open arches of the window at the foot of the canopied bed. I see a shape forming from the black hill and think of Europa. I see her dazzling ribbons of hair cursing in the wind like cattails and I know my lover comes to me. I see her sandy hips against the plaster of this fading bungalow. I see the armament of the arms forming over the horned points of the stars. I am erect.
There comes a plick against my wrists and I swat the mosquitos away. I smell the tainted carbon of lover’s blood. A chill dances along the keys of my spine and I shiver in the knowing the water has risen to meet me. I open my shuttering eyes one last time to see her waist in front of me, lying on her back, with legs opening as a lotus flower. She calls me to rut her like a swan to seed her as a bull, to take what is rightfully mine. I can sense her in the air as tangible as the day she struck my leg with her dress hemming. It was the only time we would touch, the only crescent of our voice, the only blow to our rusting trumpet. We would never touch again in the light or the darkness, in the realm of make-believe nor in the constructs of human fucking.
I lie bleeding out in the sweaty sheets we never made love in. I hear the slowing, fine thumps of a metronome, giving release to the chasm from which it came. I freely lower my head, with tongue speaking in her mystical language. Liszt’s piano drowns in the thick waters of the brook. In her shade-blackened vagina, I long to tuck my last hand in between her lips, feeling for the heads of the Koi. One reaches its head up to meet me and I cup my hands around its apple curves and surge into the falls rushing between her. I can taste her now as if she herself is a bakery. I am wet from her; succumbed to the compass points she has anagrammed in the stars for me. The searching begins again with the dying of one rhythm and the release of the other. In the last untwining of me along the canopied bed, witnessed by that godawful paraplegic clock, I listen to the letters of her envelopes falling like rain along the tin roofs over the bungalow. I know that they need no answer. I know the best of a woman’s love letters are written to the man she so purely betrays. There comes a knock at the door.
The Boy Bonnet
The Boy Bonnet
As a boy I’d climb feverishly
into strokes of a tree’s curved arms.
Up where chiding wrens are useless.
I would consider
about the godawful sun in these red eyes,
about the need to push a chick from its youth,
about the stirring of squirrels as neighbors,
chasing laps of acorns around barky table tops.
Mama always said that
I am safe in green mossy socks
& as long as bluebirds
will nest in the rooftop tenements
of the bonnet.
I become so comfortable in the rung
of her sunken knuckles
I swaddle too close to what's left
of a baby’s face
considering if anyone would notice
a boy leaping away from such
an irresponsible bonnet.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
on Choosing Sides
on choosing sides
good luck dear quadriplegic moon! there does not seem to be any god standing in the doorway of stars holding out spare parts for limbs… what a drag for you my friend! & i am still just a clock of unwinding meat, an asexualized maggot with seedlet eyes hung in a shiny forehead of bone. were i you i suppose i’d have let go of this earth by now rather than spin its arms, frozen cheek to warm breast for 4 billion years, waving like stage featured minuet in tutus & human brittle. this race of brand new man with intellectual bow-ties & spit shiny skyscrapers, unaware of the cosmic pendulum within your wink. that sable pantheon of hydrogen thugs & galactic wheezing a rouge for the silent mask of the Roche, when the mouth of the fly becomes the swallow of the flown.
o dear moon, i am but flints of combustible ribs, hung on a skin clothesline with the rest of the sheets. i cannot churn the wheelchair you stick yourself in, take a stick & poke the eyeballs of space to red juicy yolks or yank the holy curtain rodded into the jet dead space between us away for you to see straight. i just pray this crater of smacking cues, teenage tectonics & leaking veins of molten bubblegum would suffice to say that we are young pimpled faces with our automatic rifles, standing post in an atmosphere you hold in your alabaster palm. we may march in California skin & speak too fast out of turn, mulling thoughts into selfish grain for the consumption of a fragile framed time, however i cannot change their commands.
i can sing when the tide moves her waist under me & clean the tar jizzom from your mantled carseat, when i’m through with her. i can run my piano fingers through her green hemlocks in the sunshine of today & stab her with steely sunset when i walk away each night. i can slip on concrete condoms to keep the semen of a forest from growing up inside her womb & i can push my coat hangers deep into her uterus when she thinks i am in love with her. what i cannot do is wash these sticky hands clean from your incessant staring while i skull fuck your sister earth into a dead sled of a wheelchair to roll quietly next you in the Great Hall of autistic children.
i am the worm tick ticking in that cold can inside your chest. i am that parasite wallering out your eyelids & leaving track marks into forearms that i would amputate sometime soon enough. good luck dear quadriplegic moon! rising up with the rest of your cosmic shoes underneath a god’s heel that left you limbless & one good eye in a monocle of me… the sun is a bummed cigarette, a good-natured fag of ash & curdled wine lipstick on the end of a cold butt & I am unafraid of the dark! good luck on your front porch with the rest of your low-lit fireflies, in a negrous field of a godless universe, where i am the center of myself… & i only want to be on the side that wins…
Monday, August 23, 2010
Scenes from a '69 Dead Sled
Scenes from a
‘69 Dead Sled
by Solomon Fink
I. the Ideal of Men
Dreaming of the Free
younger men are always dreaming free,
their hearts in centrifugal winds of youthful fervor and forgetting
like sunflowers in concrete fields dismissing of pollen
while gelatinous cogs of mind machinery slowly age to rusty canned helmets
duty becoming a common unborn child cutting itself free
honoring mysogynistic scraping of a cervical balloon
and i was wearing thin this skin bag of cause and effect
i was becoming a free man of idealistic dreams
and gathering my sanity into a gunnysack slung onto my back
to step out among the stars, one thrombone heel before the next
i was becoming a Mutjahre on the waltzing away from Mother America
her souring tits were empty to these thirsty lips
and with that dry taste of abandonment i awoke
anulled from the sleep of my human birth
these bones were chromium and burnt orange steel
pinions of earthen dust from an Infinite Mechanic
towed in the recollections of a umbilical
watching scenes from the windshield play out loud
like motions in front of a ‘69 dead sled
joining the collection of mass burial plots prepurchased
chosing to tear off the burdened man’s rearview for reaction sake
marring the open wound of bitterdom until it trickled
i was becoming a younger man choosing dreaming of action
over concrete quid pro quo of rubberstamp consequence
young men of this generation were no longer dreaming of either
of drowning in fire or burning in water
only of warm, wet pools of astroglide and thigh highs
amphetamine driven into foothills of bar wnches
following ridge lines of Americana Ass through gates
into the Valley of the pink Lotus
in their camo-condoms and mountaineering lensatics
fingers marching, forked words beguiling,
to have the Valley open right up
a fresher blossom on an earlier grave with a locked gate
i was seeing these faces before pheramone flushed cheeks
and after sheets soak-spent in shades of hollow sweat
with quivering quads and convulsing muscles
i was seeing them lay as willing as bony buttercups
yellow buds spread wide to the moon
yet young men were still dreaming of more fields
that broken stink of fermented loam just there
just outside Christ jumping off his crooked cross
i was dreaming of becoming marrowless Hollow Bone
a scholar of gentlemanly proportion with weed and mescaline
a sage, a vessel, up all night with starry tokers
walking from ocean to ocean, 17th Street to Big Sur
cracking King Crabs legs at sunrise
before watching John Denver go down in in sunset
this is life wandering, theaters of uncircumcised
panting against ticket booths of those foreskins snipped
standing unaware and aloof with Uncle Walt
our barbaric yawps bouncing across rooftops
of tinking tin or gasping of clay asphalt
over brown-box ghettos of sleeping babies
mulling trailor parks into red-white blur of open highway
i was dreaming of freeing myself
unchaining this elastic leash ever snapping back
and i, another of its stark raving lunatics
foaming from an incorrigible jaw
i, an erupting pubescent Saint of Hormone
bones stretching in age of concaving air,
eyes rearranging teenage ratio to manly veranda
this i give birth from hands of Sage Homme
reincarnating one tickity-tick of non-stop meat-clock
i am myself stepping from atomic graveyard alone,
from under Old Glory and Army dress greens
blue infantry smile tucked under arm
and three stripes down in rime of rear view
and all of my abstaining sins following
toward my terminal point of damnation
but door to door prophecying at strip clubs
and popping little blue realities with Tangueray
intergalactic nebulas in frothy bloom
making it to Memphis on a hundred bucks of borrowed cash
getting stomped in before bawling and wail
sipping day-old grinds from chipped porcelain
making it to the home of pomeade, jug bands
and a black baby named Rock n Roll
dirty faced pawnshops, the roasting smell of pit barbecue,
melting of alleyways plastic and burnt crackpipe pens,
sweating skin like waxy candles under lowlit wicks,
white headed sprigs of cotton jumping from a Mississippi Delta
dancing naked after Beale Street shuts her drunken eyes
sipping SoCo through a sissy straw and teasing Socio-babes
with their silicone minds and fake breasts straining bikini
before throwing up a morning sun with street sweep
i usually dream of popping heads off Barbie dolls
since walking out of prosthetic childhood
slow-killing premeditation of woman and the holy holy natural
them coloring clowns in heels and silicone
while they’d bob their horse-hair heads into barrel tubs
of swollen pant apples and pelvic overloading
back doors being kicked in by G.I. Joes or Stretch Armstrongs
them pigtails now plastic ponies circling bar top tables
chasing highest bidder or malted beverage
painted skin-canvas in Mac counter rainbow
and Abercrombie sweaters pushed two different shades
smelling of jasmine, honeysuckle, rose
and radiator moonshine
young men were dreaming of drinking with best mates
younger men were dreaming of dreams lilting in dreams
where sovereignty becomes a redneck disproportionate
with a whisper atomizing away in hillbilly bravado
human hearts regulating homeostatically within gaps
smelting like hammocks of mule manure
and karaoking Islands in the Stream with Dolly Parton
floundering dollars and shoes along broken brick roadways
to an Oz on an oasis somewhere in this nowhere
imma a bottle-caught wizard in red ruby Chuck Taylors
chunks of liquored oatmeal in bibulous throats,
circles of soused drool stain in tatty jeans
holding flower petals to main drag gangstas;
overweening rose petals into unwound lowrider windows
reechoing metallic clicks from a recessed room of boozehound cerrabelum
this is a young man dreaming in bubbles of unspoken air hole
mentioning Buddha and the Kaballah Cadillacs
no longer threat to chromium steel or crematorium
even hell has angels watching over in eliptical shoulders
cadres of starry cataracts through tunnels of scar tissue black
thoughts effusing down a brick sided nightclub is short of celestial
and as pungent as the virgin martyrdom of Starry Dynamo
smells of deflowered pussy and vibrating jelly bottle
tainting placebo of Motherhood wrapped thirteen times
shoved off the ends of bedroom gallows
now pendulous in white halo rings around streetlights
prom queens with half shirts stretching in 88s and thunderbolts
neon twirling panties in bijou hoola-hoop hands establishing pelvic synagogues
and doling out strands of pearl broken from noose
cigareetes falling with only lipstick headed butts
and disjointed stalks of menthol amputated
their last exhales of nervous nicotine and city hallways
Ecstacy in stoning thrusts of midnight freight train
a million babbling faces along ancient cobblestone
their amok mouths dribbling like spoken semen
where the Condom always runs away with the Spoon
II. the Dochotomy
of a Swagman
a Greyhound to Denver was giving credence to divinity
autistic ears listening to phonetic thunderings
like nugatory miming of Charlie Chaplin
fleeing conjugal suppositions of wedlock;
diamonds are chintzy substitutes for cock rings anyway
hearts wind up spooning ice cream and love letters
meliorating into panty troves along carpet
contemplating martyrdom for a sisterhood of mother
burning the sacred Mother Bitch at stake
and chumming hands in new born feculent water
for cartalgenic faced sharks of diaper rash
getting high off ammonia and Similac,
instead of bourbon mash and black crosses
with Hooters girls in orange bikinis
a catharthic cleansing of counterproductive house
before mid-afternoon blowjob and Jerry Springer bathos
pushing the black mohair pins
up through the pitch eye of an all night needle
younger men are always dreaming of free
strangling wraiths with stringy hands
sans consequence to running down a naked sunset
squeezing the Phoenixian goddess right out
pursuing ten years of white-knuckled marriages
chasing that red headed bitch across western cerulean
inexoribly to sea salty mattresses of California seabank
toward Colorado where buildings are popping up in culteral pedantics
through warbling desert crack of syphollitic highway
and fragments of Gotta Keep em Separated from cosmic speaker
there is jasmine enbosomed in mid-summer fever
sweating off tears of misanthropic one-eyed days of subdued stench of roadkill
or incensing truckers to rub their boxcar peckers to
divine purple tips like young girl hips
standing naked melodic in median dresses
Gods are met along highways, washed into ditches,
burned at mid-west stakes or attaining enlightenment
like Bhikkhuni heavily versed in Kama Sutra scrolls
God a golden gutarista beside crossroads of choreographed cosmos
humans but busted notes in infinite concerto
with wah-wah of ignornace always hammered on
peaks of Long and Pike helmets marching catwalks of mossy watch towers
as henchmountains with cirrose blue leather jackets
glorious straw bristle heads of sunflower
broadly shouldered thugs of glassy-eyed cascade
with toothpicks of forests dangling from corners of alveolar ridges
of blue spittoons of annular lake mouths
pushing albatross spectres upward to space
bleak grumbling balls rolling out onto highway
like popped white seltzer tablets
from beneath bedskirts of mountain tumble-weeding in Gunsmoke
and the stratosphere picking them up with dissenting moans
and beating the black out of white stripes of lightning
its little black boy gums bleeding open and dislocated
jumping out of view into hedge row of Pikes Peak
and a porch light flashes on their nappy afros in photonegative
as if field hands jinking from probing searchlight
their systemic hands in a line letting go
afraid of themselves and left blundering in blind veils
like abandoned babies dumped in bottomless trashcans
or billfold left dangling alongside a whorish chamber pot
challenging opposition to give dignity to the scorned
young men standing by cracked faced roadsides with ethereal dreams
asphalt twining out in flutes of black spotted tongue
with Samsonite and stickers of pin-ups and Eiffel Tower
curvaceous blonds sucking nicotine smokestacks
with perfect SPF and a hand full of Aces
apathetically watching eager milemarkers along I77
like resurrected cocks with an oozing mescaline eye
and echoes of Midnight Rider in canyon abysm
stirring sleeping goats with shit imbued fur
young men trading libations for oasis in Grand Junction motels
trading algid dusty Mojave blankets for Motel 8’s
or single beds of bar room trailor park girls
chasing that magnificent of holies Redheaded Porpagator
her unmistakable western ass hollering like an Aussie Drover
into fatiguing earlobes of Eastern Cattle
filling gas tanks and styrofoaming rings of coffee cups in Barstow outskirts
to catch glimpse of Hollywood ghosts cajoling by
leaning apparitions of grey haired James Dean
against skipping jukeboxes of starry Blackwell Corner
before shoving off to Forever-Wind
paralleled on some intricate roadsides of vinyl rhumb line
his hair still sticking in the clouds for descrying sake
or on the bark of some defunct Joshua tree
ambling their Mojave rims alienated and without Holy Trinity
aggragating banshees in shades of blowzy cattle
those pale faced horns in cultus vanity
consuming crones in silver metal granaries behind Silver Springs
mimicking bromidic trailheads in witch hunts
to quartz mirrors of Devils Playground
jingling in halls of Norad and reflecting fractions of electricity
a perpetual volta of a cumulonimbic figurine
snapping like anarchic ends of a titanic wrist
lashing mountain backs in momentary welts
ferocity with the serenity of a pirhouetting ballerina
cry! cry! you orphanage of beaten sky!
looking for remnants inside a younger mans bones
snow gyring up in blistering belts to imbricated waists
white powder stirring up like cooing pidgeons shewed
from cavernous rooftops of altitude and bird shit
finding glints of recollection in Academy Blvd. pool halls and caliginous dive jukes
with forty year old trixies with Jordache daughters
bastardizing German accents across pool tables to get laid
unbuttoning blouses of geniality into out loud caterwaul
drunken tomcats groping into limp cricketeering bowlegs
nine ball tournies were Fetanyl for champions of human dynamo
and dead marching enebriation for bar stool stooges
Moloch! Moloch!
working amongst Vulgus of a local mall for take-home and beer dole
bartering sneakers for booze and flashes from Hooters gals
for ice sacked pitchers of Coors Light and matchstick hand jobs
from orange shorted legging girls with their push up bras in fists
afterhour sex sweat as redolent as chicken grease
and daubs of scuzzy civet and store-hound eau du toilette
from discounted perfumerias or JC Penneys or roadside pup tents
twelve year old ratty haired fence jumpers
selling turquoise and crab legs with illegal Mexican accents
making change with concertina scraped palms
pressing 1 for english translator rolling rosary between thumbs
folded stemmed waists of sunflower magnifica
smoldering love affairs with blackberry eyes
olive limbs as smooth as acrylic tubs
mouths as savory round as gas pumps
getting orbs of nakedness into silver pellet shower storms
lathering penasia and vulva in hand savagery
scrubbing and screwing in suds for sake of virginity
pores exhaling feculence in steamy mikvah bliss
consoling to All-Night Bible Hour on public radio
with blackwashed shadows of the Rockies catatonic over every shoulder
suckling teets of rain cloud nipples under shawled Apache maidens
reminding white-skinned America of La Belle Sauvage
washing into Colorado Springs noon time or interupting lunch
pushing faces of climbers off rocks at Garden of the Gods
as if ants in body harness and defying gri gri
mouths aching with thirst of desert tongue
this was the dreaming of a twenty year pauper
self stolen before those succubus years of dizziness
wrapped with legs of smoothly shaven waitress girls
ears drenched in lobe spittle and lip gloss
and starving pants of heaving breasts
when warm beer and cool pussy would eventually run itself dry
III. in the Bone Courtyard
of Traveling Kings
young faces like timestamped skin-emmets making separate ways to California
riding golden railways to tofu, junkies, tattoos and the American Slit
to valleys of drunken grapes, festering garlic and Time
that improprable, unpredictable gash of Nun
in bulleted tubes of Greyhound then Amtrak
with absolute faces of forgetting, just a knowing that they were
a few faded jeans congested into unhemming gunnysack
from duffle, then drab of camo Alice pack
eventually into plastic overhead compartments
with empty peanut wrappers and aluminum foil
voracious mouths eating dried salisbury steaks and moon pies
from torn off ends of unexpiring MREs
peanut buttering in spoons of discovering portability
stuffing cheeks with dry cracker or unleavened bread
until our shit wadded up for days
in premenstrual shit cramps and migraines
lamenting eyes becoming sizzling electric headlights
of two howling freight trains across forehead tracks
finally letting loose of curdling bowel ropes
into porcelain baskets at rest stops in crescendo
2 maybe 3 flushers of peanut butter and cheese
in stain rimmed hoola bowls along I-70 corridor
like enigmatic Baba Gulabgir and his writhy cobras
naked and pissed off incensed in full-eye contact
their spreading helmets, hisses in nagging woman tongue,
leaving exhausted anal snakebites of red chafe
crosslegged thanking Ganesh for handicap bar
sitting so long our naked feet went to sleep
night bronzed noses of mice trampling through fields of buttercups
with yellow hands swaying at a Big Sky concerto
along piano wired threads of spiderlegged locomotive cicotrix
imagining virgin sodded heads peeking out from canted hoods
opening the holiest of blossoms for eye-roll and syrupy moans
miles on miles of banana studded stems for picking
and over-twenty-one glittery girlie FHM faces
sprouting untouched womanly burr of pink velvet
jimsonweed vast and unopinionated leaning in the wind
pollinating in breezes of masturbatory pubescence
chased by portly bumbles with taste of Hamunaptra nectar
unchaste and laying whoredoms in seed to wind
looking glasses of tinted train window capturing American Pomerium
doctors robed in tweed-suit and wingtips
peddling bottles of neon liquid at the feet of Jeezus
shutters flashbanging in nigrous raincoats
framing it with sottish eyes of travel sized rum
thumping fingers on foreheads with a midday sunfinger
whishing of hungover cycloptic eye banging with rollshade lids
in swelling blisters against skins of leper glass
explicative faces in molten circles of curious children
making love to ginger eyed Army gals in Fort Carson
rolled over under nine shuttering orgasms
her cat throat purring and yowling into shadows
diassembling M16s to making them absolute again
wiping sniffles of carbon black into government tissues
a carcass of 5.56 mm ammo faetaled in Vietnam memories
haunting misfires in sleeping thatch huts over baby heads
yellowing like its final turned page
while nursing a sister in carpel tunnel casts
make believing she was a mother and family
icy dead end streets meeting neck of highway
hindsight is burying a relative with a pulse
her feet chopped of tucked into pine box
with her soul Florida bound on an 11:05 to Boca Raton
living in hobo clothes on dollar bills and vending machines in Moapa Valley
sucking holes in soda cans for Holy Mary Fizzle
like making Bloody Marys in nun robes for third world Tse-Tses
dying a thousand times inside these cowardly sockets
men lying and afraid of telling the truth smoking rolled poison
hearing chatter teethed mumbles along spiral of metal wheel
humming in Aurora Borealis electrical storm
lardy Italians whistling at shadows on canyon walls
greasy haired and cabbage patched under jewelry
their iridescent gawk coming out of night
flitting along hummingbirds away from ourselves that way
dreaming in our young men appetite
from four thousand miles and forty hollow corpses
of stowed away Stoli and Jim Beam bottles
two gout stewardesses and an un-smoked ganga roll
ass-smacking on teeting tracks with rainbows of white pearls
pooling in runny yolks at the heels of boots
blithesome heads in fuzzy fidoras with imaginary goddesses
bouting up against fat swollen headed pillows
sneezing mustard gas in cramped spaces
etherizing like distilling water bags
whore bathing in steel pools of rest stop commodes
with spouts and flushes of swirling blue water
toothbrushes raking stale muffins
from between erupted pouches of bleeding gum
watching faces waltz out of confusion into foggy quo
as if sinister knowing with belted handguns
trigger-cocked and smiling rounds
their ashy corporate knees and scuffed porcelain teeth
women in chains in husband dungeons
pliers in melotto finger holds
knocking loose luster of all-resin crooked crowns
like plastic kings on thrones of bone teeth
cutting ties with enamel jesters
in a mouth under Spanish Inquisition
IV. Unraveling Stars of
Human Brittle
young men dreaming up asinine delusions as beliefs
waking up with mouthcaves of arse and chokedamp
after carnal fantasies with Hollywood starlets
blonde bombshells of iniquity and cutoffs
riding mechanical bulls at Gilley’s in carmine coats of sunburn
jumping naked in Belaggio’s open palms in Vegas Theravada
white piping fingers of a fountain whistle of blah
swaying gondolas and churn of spilling bleach river
distant chings of slot machines spreading surly thigh
for shiny bastards chuting into paper cups
staring madly at lawns of felt green card tables
where the angry Father earns college tuition in a visor
for a geek at MIT and smoking unfiltered Camels
and ass impaled by rainbow coalitions
headlights beaming down a narrow forehead of gelded desert road
in double barrelled cans chasing nigger of a hitchhiker
starry napped afro with white lined eyebrows
to the sounds of Ray Charles’ I Gotta Woman
laughing at how many times something has tried to kill it
prevailing inexhaustible swings from every failing
at the next douche of rinsing depluming sunrise
humming the morning after reveille of losing virginity
confounded by late hour schizophrenic faces of two different days
a dichotemy doing shots of Cuervo of opposite polarity
leaving a cut open wound of priest for penance
to step left footed onto a Barstow sidewalk for salvation
beneeath smells of arid ripe sand and backseat unshoed feet
wanking in filth of fifty cent condom
feeling Phillistinian set aloose from beating of broken rod
just to smile for cockatrice of a copperheaded dawn
staring into orange beads like a West Coast Basilisk
undoing eyes blinking into Los Angeles streetlights
leaving Saugus en route for that dusty throat of Big Bear
like ole Aub and Del in ghostly sheets across Rattlesnake Canyon
into High Sierras with pine whistles and chubby bass
buying Yoo-Hoos and beef jerky for lake trout
chumming with hot pink bits of aquatic ecstacy
driving those dawn floppers beserk jumping up through glassy rings
the early sunrise lights bouncing in red-orange carnivale
fat-headed sunflowers lulling with yellow faces
like obese children by the jingling candy truck
laying in clomps of field boot by netted bivouac
casting shadows of black forearms
out of the sleeves of robes on ends of trees
night becoming a lean-to with a holy constellation roof
and beer buzz hummed like blind choir boys
thwirping against the shrubs metronome
awaking to the march of the chainsaw eternal
in stingy gnarls and Brutus grunts of yellow mechanical beetle
Machine Man is stomping in grove faces with iron clad heels
kicking in green teeth and solar plexas of Demeter
shaking loose in Ten Petals of ignorance
settling debt of ancient siddhi with mouths of a hundred years
perpetuality of human worm with no beginning and no end
an unbalancing equation left hanging
in centrifical noose of an uninterupted pendulum
kinetic energy is accelerating in dreaming young bone vehicles
until arriving in a cabbage picking Fresno cowpatties
where mixed bags of legal and illegal aliens charge one-armed
through sun bitten hedgerows of vegetables
stuffing dollars into bra straps and box springs
so mijo can attend agricultural university to grow hashish
and prima can can learn Engrish on her back in dorm rooms
falling in line with trailor trash, spicks, wops, wetbacks,
crackers, neegroes, autties, pricks and theives
in fragments of college cunt on fire from Radio Nowhere
jabbed at by eager peckered boys following close behind
tuning in and turning on, radio knobs in one lathered hand
steroided jocks with purple headed veins gripped in the other
starving for a next fix of andro and cheerleader quim
muscles splitting, penises shrinking, brittle heads of nerve endings
a gaping end to losing chasms of spiritual conscience
snapping like necks of brittle field mice in traps
before tomorrow killing newborn and wife in jealous rage of shadows
in the name of a holy Christian army
questioning their trinity of faith by drowning in fire,
or giving up and lying down in it
murdering fathers in their black shadowy oilskins
pupils dilated in aborted doll eye stares
making passage in underground railroads
like hacked up parts of American Nigger still in chains
and nappy cotton heads fresh from one boat
boarding under sails of Flying Dutchman and troubador of another
Moloch! shot the bitch of America in the forehead for ten bucks and a gallon of oil
rode her naked ass down stairs of sovreignty for France
torches catching blaze in the pumpkin carved bullet holes
and a Senate of prickless gleeing their balls in murmurs of wheeee!
eye balling white cans of face paint and wooly-bully wigs
oh college of the damned! walking immigrants alive in cocoa butter
wrapping scrotums in cotton candy caoutchouc
inviting minions of fraternity to dorm room festivals
with topless twenty year old sorority girls
blowjobbing like appletinis at Happy Hour
before ten cent taco night at Del Taco
mixed with body shots and jungle juice
making for guysers of cheese and meat come 2 a.m.
laughing and puking magnums of Chilitos across car hoods
exchanging fake numbers with Victoria’s Secret girls
the words PINK screenprinted on their Barbie Doll asses
each dreaming of Centerfold or Cosmo divinity
or another catatonic Hollywood starlet hopping off Holy Slow Train
Bitters rolled in sweet clove sticks in ‘tween their lips
legs freshly shaved for modeling career derailment
left popping ludes, pinkies, downers, amphetamines or crosses
rising up in their grey ash-haired morning bedheads
preching along the tops of their barrio mounts
as if clashing gongs atop alabaster rock in Tibet
and they sing their tambourine tributes to Janis and Oprah
all Queens of L.A. or at least so the barbituates tell it
no one dreams of making it with a cankled waitress
serving Moons Over my Hammy at Denny’s
and drowning patrons in burnt coffee grinds and flavored creamer
these young cosmos-phistos dreaming instead of Mamis and Geishas
thumb-thumping toffee cans in lieu of drums
opening windows of fresh air from spiritual whorehouses
meeting olive skinned hispanic chicas dancing Duranguenese
throttling shots of Patron and Cuervo in short-shorts and cowboy boots
doing the Running Man, Chicken, Bus Driver and Sprinkler
to sounds of Soul Train and Solid Gold, barking whoop! whoop!
with broken rhythms of Snoop Dogg and Tu Pac spitting off ammo
rolling on blunts and sipping pisswater 40’s
for the homies in cell block six strung by bedsheets
sifting in ectoplasmic forms in from Fraternity Row doorways
of guys who race Accords and Civics into thin desert air
against apparitions of Route 666 into waffling night air
scraping fenders from hounds teeth of starlite
to have their last breath snaggled between the face of a god and an elm
young men dream of running homerun bases in Fulton County
circling cosmic aureola of red clay tit
starving with flickering devil tongues made of money
listening to baseball cracking into wafts of viral Meyer Lemon tree
where the smell of worn leather calls the plowboys in
where they supplant themselves with tight nylon pants
and smack one another’s homogenous ass cheeks
grabbing them like pasty snowglobes and shaking them out loud
marching like uniform saints to the organ groans
into payday vagina dug out of red, white and blue bleacher
to the Jones Boys hitting homeruns in the World Series
as the Monkeys of Summer chasing Hammerin’ Hank
of juicing stitched baseballs into top deck floodlights
rubbin’ off to grandstand opera and pokin’ ballboys
for an autograph, backseat hummer and a full size poster
carrying sunburning girls and their red striped shadows
along muscular piped arm ladders to heaven and limp penasia
living unbridled across tubs of unconscious bubbles was still a verb then
Moloch! the love affair with phallus and the American Bunghole!
doctors throwing pills at purpling lips
stuffing pig faces with wooden crucifix and day old apples
in a hospital of orderlies stealing underwear
surviving toileted epilepsy and cancer at chapel alter
with a hundred and ten pound supermodel’s cancerous ecydsis out of skin
standing on an Eternal street corner with clots of hair
waving goodbye to a god chained around her neck
her legs toggling for one last step toward wedding vow
before arresting the ghost who stole her body
blinking her eye lids to a lasting starry dynamo
we were burying a corpse unwound of its twine of soul
under grey cups of steeping teabag cloud
an ungrateful God hanging his head opening his dutiful arms
and singing Bringing in the Sheaves on a Saturday morning
identifying caramel melts of Shakti
in muddy amber bleeding from her wrists
casting down herself onto a cross for family name
and lying in cocentric circles of wedding band
with the price tag still neatly stapled inside
young men rarely dream of burying, yet they do
from parents to wives to habitualistic regrets
faces stuck on Ally McBeal’s dancing babydoll
shoveling out broken bits of plastic
from wedding cake tops, unabled autistic relationships,
cornfields of exterrestrial crop circles, or old fucking scars
they dream along paunchy clouds smoking skunk herb
on occasion some finer hybrid from Canada
chasing Tinner’s Rabbits to cauldron of moors
Devil’s hounds in full cry across Hayne Down
through windowed filters of sheer curtains
like see through nipples of a black country night
or gigantic chocolate kisses in whorehouse teddy
eating, pissing, gorging more, fucking less, stabbing wet noodles
as if beery penises stuffing armaments of flacid helmets in self defense
making air balloon babies out of busted condoms
washing out herds of gushing ovulate to floor or toilet
like cattle to cervical packing plant
aborted with social ease of canned explosion
with little interference from mother or God herself
Christians waving their paper arms with highlghted Bibles
like monkeys clanging disgusting tambourines
V. the Understanding
of the Wanderjahr
dreaming out loud was for graduating succubi
rose tattooed B-girls in scarlet letterman jackets
Snoopys pushing lawnmowers on pubic yards
and the body delicious was a nauseating trend
money becoming tasteless on tongues of credit cards
a notion that it is easier to get in college than making azimuth
Wanderjahrs with waistcoat and stenz waltzing through universe
along cosmic hippie trails to Freak Street in Kathmandu
just another gash strung out with a rainbow of spoons
another Fritz or Froehline with scratchy nails and selective memories
tossing ringworms of hipcat words into speech
staring down the iconic blouse of Americana with her hideaway bra
one too many batteries to the imperial tongue
paved in political gold streets or conventional wisdom puss,
lobbyists’ groping under the table pyramid schemes,
or Fannie Mae digging poor black grandmothers from under porches
dreaming of woven American apple pies and white picket fences
mind dulling to inevitability of becoming Swaggies
hiding behind gyrating hips of religious politics
back when stringing up negroes was still a gas
to watch them erect and self-shat like run over earthworms
feelthy old pervs sitting on rusty summer swings
in flannel mothballs and popsicles in the basement
so the muscly armed paperboy would come see
drinking more at thoughts of crooning repentence
owing myself in grapeshots of liquid apology
but fuck if i was going to admit it
purging up succubant childhood memories
specters of nihilistic whorehouses and adulterated philandering,
cocaine and sticky dollar bills, riding trains of bed rails,
biting metal iron across brittle bone shoulder,
floating, swollen eyed bulbs of dead Pekingnese,
probing gropes of older men,
ninjas in parking garages and Dharma Bums,
libertine living for lack of common sense
hands scraping nicotine off yellowing troughs of front windshields,
diffracting eight tracks of Alabama’s Roll On,
cauterizing fish sticks steeping in pickle juice,
stealing cable and its fracturing moans of porn,
black & white midnight Kung Fu
hours creeping like rust along that bastard minute hand
we who were sleeping on pleather fold down beds
in backs of bubble windowed vans
a mindstruck volta of the eighties
praying out loud to pearly exploding stars
into a black ear of deaf internal brittle
an eternal cracker sacrament of cigarette butt sky
pleading on our best skinned up kiddo knees
that our God would come syringe head first
pricking purple capped hoola-holes into our arms
to relieve burning hunger from belly of Batie-Bummell bear
quenching drowning fire with gasoline vein
where Southside Teenagers dream of DMV Drive
vivacious bombshells spread eagle on Jaguars
i caught in a carcrash of rusting skin of a ‘71 Dead Sled
skimming across treetops of spiritual servitude
and across jiggling fat rolls of obese America
from frisbee waffles and lobes of What-a-Burger
in search of a well lubed freedom
promised in a letter from Uncle Jefferson
his good old boy network closing in
on two hundred plus years of anarchy
minus satanic wigs and powdery faces
rerecording that Declaration of Codependence
shackling those pages of metaphors, now run
wet ink and disappearing agendas
then again they knew that when they wrote it
their scape goats becoming elected officials
picking pockets of the Withouts and the Old
slithering behind podium bushes
in underbellies of striped wool suits
smoking Habanas with interns on my dime
for vicarium, i stretch my lungs
yowling back at my Republican neighbor
like some drooling Hangman
his Elephants rolling hashish with freshly minted deuces
decapitating his lifestyle with hands full of ego
my Metallica and Red Hot Chilli Peppers
interrupting his sonatas of Beethoven
Fucker never even knew Beethoven was deaf
makes for phenomenal drinking music though
this is the last dream of a jaded jack-off lover
as the ladies part ways with their woven flowers
their denim petals releasing into pink orgasmic moans
like the forgiving liquidity of whorehouse apologies
or baby seals suckling oil out of ocean’s teet
their midnight silk dresses of tar pulled
over shoulders of a raped and bruised old bitch
that cosmic whorehouse pirhouetting
of a dry, small titted oracle
VI. Watching Flies Falling Out
of Corporate Window Sills
this, this is what we dream of
WE
stolen by those succubant years
molesting in hole-in-wall bars with neon smiles
watching wedding gowns meet
fear of commitments in lowlit pubs
spinning wheels for drink specials
smoking camels and ordering diet sodas
dying cannot be ugliness so we rented ourselves more time
chameleon hair colors, adjusting tummy lines,
running nowhere on treadmills, in tight shorts,
mascara and lip gloss and lacy black thong
Death need not see the face it collects
in Pagan secrets we go into hollow night
hands wrenching with grocery bag bibles
threads of memories slowly unwound
praying unto melting candles of broken faith
lopping off at the wick of exchange of soul
young men dreaming out loud in propietous cause
self addiction becoming soothing philanthropy
taking off our shoes so not to be tread, knowing
the naked eye doesn’t even know we exist
dreaming of becoming banks for the wealthy,
trollips in green dresses, expanding thresholds
of mortgage rates,
assuming robes of deity,
driving elderly women mad with ideas of suicide,
their youthful flower now ashy grey
to be dry fucked wide open by raping commerce
with little bald men with high blood pressure,
sucking teet of secretary and flavor-of-the-months,
arranging board meetings in Cancun,
before swan diving from a fourteenth floor balcony
unemotional about empty bonds and ponzie scheme
young men dream of donning suits of fine wool
smoking Arturo Fuentes,
with latina concubines and yachts,
sailing to edges of Dry Tortugas
writing books of extrodinary irreverence,
raising pedestals to special interest deities,
fund raising reach-arounds and wine benefits,
travelling to far off islands and buying them
for love of barbie doll from college dorms,
while she torments her offspring into depression
so that she can fall into bottles of vicatin,
when Age paints an uglier canvas,
bitching about it to the ears of listening pool boy
she has effortlessly spread her legs for in the cabana
when dollar bills have curdled her gash of a face
then blaming cheating husband for Lack of Attention
or black dress antennae wearing interns
it was only one menage e trois for him
model Mercedes icy smooth vespertine with xenon headlamps
auto-fuck-me sunrooves, power windowed
fencing out the bildge rats with newpaper and water bottles
begging for wrinkled dollars cleaning windows
just outside a Help Wanted window
Moloch! Moloch! the bottle is full with the Demon!
they who are too rusty to dream or curve lips toward smile
before the mortgage was stolen from under them,
before their wife ran off with the pool boy,
and just before they decide
to find that fourteenth story window
to make dressing on that boulevard of stars
from up there anyone can leave an imprint
cut! the pilots wave or am i just paranoid?
these young-man dreams of walking along open road
letting strain of planter’s foot and ache of back
whimpering into curtains of a falling sunset
until i reached that golden destination of western coast
through Las Vegas funhouses and pasty-tittied strip clubs,
wedding chapels of instantaneous nuptials or divorcees,
bull riding with reminding signs in wooden screma
SCRAPE SHIT OFF BOOTS,
mechanical bulls tossing tourista cowboys
with their seersucker gouchos and woven deck shoes,
i dream of drinking in New York, New York with hourglasses of frozenia
the velvet night street to the Venetian Hotel
before my buzz dims to all-night rave clubs,
Vegas is always looking like a lake of fireflies with faces punched in it
humming pwangs of oasis over desert water of Mojave
just corporate flecks of a night air incognito
until i would finally walk out onto Los Angeles freeways
in the gasoline smoky curves of a 405 bitch
her cracked face and birthing girded hips tagged in hosital mile markers
her hispanic and gringo chipped chin of intolerance
lines blurring from Bloods and Crypts in Industry
Moloch! cry Moloch! the sin is not in the trigger!
powerlines like cable spiderwebs hanging out
between sticky floored laundrymats and crackhouses
catching flies with their drip of honey you dig
concert posters of Che like industrial wallpaper
or rising up armbands on Nazi mokeys on telephone poles
and playground junkies with election reminders
young men dream of life far away from pirhouetting Statue of Liberty
prancing pearly whites around circles of the too poor; too homeless
rusting tin cans bobbing in a harbor of too wretched refuse
rewritten by Pens of the Rich in green ink
is the City of Angels breaking off into Pacific hell?
with her children running with tar seeped feet
along ancient crumbles of San Andreas seashells
cry for children that do not know how to swim!
while sharks circle in their plexi-glass tanks at the aquarium
around and around and infinitely starving around
around and fucking doll-eyed around
where Presidio meets a tank of Monterrey ocean enclave
it rocky jutted teeth sweating for blubbering 5th grader
dizzy and rolled eyed seeds from whale fat overdose
banging their tiny fists onto glassy wall drums in search of Megladon
those children dreaming of yipping yipping dolphins
raising Atlantis in their glossy grey submarines
and eeking out leagues of decaying bottom-floor mystery
drawn in by orange hats of bonfire and uboat under Japanese plume,
sand dunes of tireless drum circles of hippie beach bums,
and gagging on cheaply rolled blunts
sweet Moloch for the gypsy! rye Moloch for the pain!
every man is a purging bone bottle and spiny whistle
emptying vessels into a gullet of insatiable time
to use and be used in moments of proportional discardment
like carbon dated prophylactics through time
stuffed in wild Barracuda backseats, in Coca-Cola cans,
warm apple pies or oily knuckled palms,
drifting aimless on white lipped seas
glorifying whichever god allows sanctity
before falling spent-empty to Davey’s sweetest drown
downward into oblivion of forever Undertow
to bottomless floors of wasted carcass before magical wisks of time
panging in hollow uboats and reef halved oil tankers
fingersnaps gnawed on by starving sea vermin
tentacled and barnacled ottomans of bony scrap
only to rise again like a ghostly phoenix from watery ashes
into hands of judgmental but forgetting gods
we’ve so aptly lept like and easily ignored
VII. Walking Mormons
to the Mountain of Buddha
young droning men dream after monastic Death
of dying in a flowery bonneted hole
headstones perched in their stony pillows
along green fields beside Buddha and his earthen blanket
woven and stitched with worm heads
and decaying hairlines of forgotten brows
until dreaming is no longer a dream awakened from
restless bones twisting in lacy caskets
waiting for tunnels of propagandic lights
waiting for hands of promising gods
waiting for grains of an hourglass to sift through forests of bones
ghosts of native indians running with white ponies
across separating ends of untied golden plains
with White Buffalo and Black Elk to lead them
their hallowed bones clanking on horseback
all skin-stitched to the grass seeds
We will see them from tops of skyscraping teepees
knowing they resound true and straight as arrows
as last fragments of a medicine man faith
while the Whites are sweeping them into dust bowls
along their Trail of Tears through orange and gold
pretending to exist in canyons where they were hung
with echoes of their screams through morning
like pelts of a a used rainstorm
and the Government is turning away
Mormons are still crusading across open range snow
halting wagon at God’s feet somewhere in Utah
praying for their Jeezus and sanity of Joseph Smith
looking up cloudy skirts into a a soft heaven
sipping on grape juice at Sacrament with crackermeal eyes
a congregation warming chestnuts of commonality
wearing badges of Adultery and plurality
in harkems of don’t ask-don’t tell
walking up to heaven in glints of white stone
like chards of unfound Spear of Longinus or not
splintered into fifty states of grain silos and Temple
while ghosts of Davey still fight for Alamo
for Santa Anna is a reciprocating wetback well costed
for love of The Church and busted rosary
these are no longer dreams of young men
dreaming of a phallic natured skyscrapers
morphing landscapes into concrete bedlams
the rest are just daytrippers picking at scabs
a devoted wink in an enormous eye over millenia
where the Mind Volta is recharging inanimate
dreaming is eternally simpler in childrens heads
ideas of bouncing balloons and gushing pinatas
bursting right out in rushes of maroon below
when grasping notions of grass and color expounded
wretching subject from misunderstanding
like physicians of a mind diseased coloring book
shading in untidy edges with hue
gliding unsteady scalpel heads into infected bursts bags of sodomy
when words were moon spelling over spoken tide
cramping vocal chords uttering mystic lingo
through flittering hands of a godly guitarista
young men dreaming of new words to complain with
under weight of insatiable whining
as if a walking paraplegic pushing a wheelchair
over feet of the walking handicapped
them walking barefoot through universal divides
treading sole when silence would not do
mumbling from quivering lips uncommanded
in teetering rickshaws toward quim-Nirvana
when wiser throats keep their mouths shut
now with sealing grolsch minds these men twitching
singeing stubborn wings beneath lampshade
where no one hears them cry
there was a time when the cosmos mattered
and cocks didn’t roll out of jagged zippered solar systems
in wet presoaked headed swollen tongues
we were tuliped and daisy-chained at airports
in the rich colors of 70’s Poppychild
when you could sweat out sermons of crumbled jazz
in train whistles of horns or just blown on tits
through smoky bars of last call booze
from lengths of caramel colored atrophy,
veining cigarettes in yellow rigamortis,
squeezed artery exhaling from wheeze-bags of lung
a dream of a zipper was Christ on denim crosses,
hung with empty dollared pockets
and hand fulls of qualudes,
no rent or bail for resting Gargantuines
beneath oil stained and dull shined pompadour helmets,
droving circles of two dollar wet beer stain,
and pockets of useless ATM receipts
were like biblical papers not easily translated
when dreaming eyes were cut wide open into view,
like wrists of white newspapered lawns
sentenced to minutes of black letters
milky galaxies of half-lit words streaming into one Constant
black holes of hormonal dharmic heads
chanting Gaudeamus omnes or Vandana Ti-sarana
language as discernable as star drizzle
and too few actions that correctly correspond
letters mentioning near-dead negro men
and with rattlling pang of teeth
flung across patrol car hood,
crying MLK while spitting red upward into shiny tin eyed batons,
striking match of a city of lost angels
young men dreaming of miles of burning asphalt
in red flickering tongues from hell
as history gets cut this way with dull witted buck knife
begnning in pork gouged into wet nigger underbelly
like a spoon into the belly button of a yowling Buddha
ending in an open hand
trying to catch its own water
VIII. Summa cum Laude
from a Donut Shop
starry young men dream of not aging
throwing horseshoes into the wide hipped stars
to watch them fall right out of night
graduating crib to immaculate grave
staring dolly eyed from its hollow sockets
like empty egg crates of university
unzipping its gritty faced fly
releasing cum filled emotional twinkies loose
from pale pastries of college funneled dorm
forms of sunbathed countertop barbies
running circles like plastic ponies
around bottles and boys at bar table tracks
their stamping tees in colors of rebellion or Benetton
young minds of men are always dreaming of sports
their seventy homeruns and hat tricks
a brothel of white pants circling bases
sticky bar room floors with flat screens
shouting through paper thin plaster walls
in jingles of shadows pushing into doorways
as if a Mamasan was shooing them in
they dream of smoking Hookahs with Mu’assel
or Soex Shisha in tightly fitted parlors
like grey nicotine stained tshirts of mud patch
summa cum laude in middle eastern robe
chasing sanskrits of tatooes and cuffed anarchical Levi’s
along this escalating traffic from Wilshire to Beverly
clanging maps of the Stars like trash can lids
leading to Estates with empty hearted Homes
young men are dreaming of being on-the-road themselves
taking railcars to Emerald City or Vancouver coffee shops
smoking fags with Jack Kerouac and the boys
flirting with blondes and their sapphire eyelets
snuggling into wraps with Canadien angels
or ruining them onto islands from forgotten wars
where untrusting immigrants run from martial law
crying with slanted eyes and golden flesh
fondling inside bellies of colossal cedars
their naked bones in snowblind fur coats
this subconcious Elysium without barbaric venality
dreams of moon circlets and dazzling twitter light
where all men become truly brothers of Earth
in havens of winged contropasso and comedy
and hairless monks are shaving heads of abandoned knots
salvation by Rogaine autonomy
tweekers throwing abused childhoods
with all its reason and idiocy reared back
like red bricks into storeway awnings
ones they usually have sunken under
as street corner tse-tse headed fly needles
gorging fat face into delicious warm forearm
hiding in cocoons of garbage dumpster
holy rollers chaining themselves to leaning trees
in prayer and gasoline for salvation
or mercy of arbol and free agency
so their declined ghost can rise with steam of paper plant
and the stink of festering sulphur dioxide
or plume of a transit choking between 5th & Pine
chicken stands deep frying on streets downtown
in lopped off limbs of bawk-bawking hot wings
like convertible cadillacs of carcass
stoked beside leather shops and handcuffs
Queene Anne dressed as an invariable hill
steeply climbing like legs moonward
an assertive hand up into black skirt of evening
spinning in dizzying revolution of the Space Needle
the city with concrete umbrella in twirl
crying Moloch! Moloch! and only beer to taste!
dopey-eyed soldiers pricked in tin badges
with doughnut licked mouths and powdered noses
chocolate smirks and flack jacket barreled chests
sqwalking radios abandoned for pastry curls
while they sit and silently sexually reference
holy grails of single mothers on lunch hour
their swollen breasts of souring cream
jilting behind checkerboard waitress unis
while catching waft of menstruating pussy
this teenage succubus with apple breasts
her redvine lips pouting around imaginary cocks
their smeared lipstick in stained rings
until she bites smilingly down
laughing
IX. Sage Homme
there was a time when the cosmos mattered
bubble gummed condom shops
and Buddhist hippie stores
exhaling their patchouli
when a hippy-hippy-shake lip glossed out loud
like pop-up carnival girls for stuffed prizes
this was young men dreaming of sex and godliness
tweekers in orange-skinned shorts, greasy fingers,
burger babes in roller skates, tattooed bar wenches
barbie is a bitch that killed natural woman
her brunette hair chasing in streaks of platinum
sun kissed stripes of southern cali bleach
hourglassed beneath bulimic sizes and 38D uplifts
choking on burn of throat weed
razzing scorched in that silicone chest
barbie was that dream within masturbating heads
when self-love was religious slippery and unconscious
as if gods created exploding universes from pale nebula
wherever prosthetic bars were tracks of frozen concoction
blowing their blue collared whistling lips
foreheads cringing in wrinkles of sick balloons
young men were dreaming of Shakyamuni and breasts
under rooms swooning in Nag Champa cloud bursts
reruns of Sesame Street word for the day: Jivatma
Virgins still trimming their wicks for a Man in Black
creamy doe eyes propped outside Starbucks chapels
sipping on Darjeeling and half-n-half
or double shot espresso lattes
like priests waiting outside panes of coffee confessional
there was awe in spiritual opportunity
godliness was persona in righteous pimp suits
and saints wore hand-me-down alligator shoes
and whores were stealing from themselves
with pink heels and generic sucking lips
tucked into black-n-white nun tunic
browning roots threading up
through nappy burlap bags of blonde scalp
donning heads of yester-women reincarnate
fucking like they just broke up with Narcissus
when sophisto-cated rioting was breaking out
lobbyists were being swatted away
their plastic kamakazi one-sided hum and venerability,
their crayonic posters, inked fingernails and bought agendas,
masquerading in politcial dissertation with lopped heads
preaching planet awareness with god-fish in pocket
scraping bark from scabbing trees for lattes
their stealing hands through coffee bean grind
in cages of green crocodile baristas
foaming non-whip low fat cappuccinos
into coffee needle to atrophied umbilical
breeding retarded jittering bastards
with beastie chains and folded pages of Bukowski
pronouncing the Apocalypse in incomplete sentences
death by cosmic collision in the year of 2012
this is how young men got through those succubus years
those hazing twenties dubbed out
in blurry spectacle or warbled soundscape
blowing backsides of drunken skulls into dark alleyways
or into stanky motel room sinks for morning maid
sanity becoming a breakthrough to advanced trauma
like the puppet with a hand up its arse
smiling until the radical transformation
or uncomfortable flatulence of having neither
trading illegal junk for caffeinated ones
riding transit into watery lanterns of night
Seattle burning in a lake of fireflies amongst starving volcanoes
seeping asphalt and neon snakes from concrete trees
protecting Emeralds with ghosts of Bruce Lee and Wyatt Earp
even before the Rooster last crowed
self inflicted by an overdosing spoon
naming gods before bleeding the freaks
always raining for the dead, and they’re always dying
Cobain sucking off frustrated wrong ends
of a phallic barreled shotgun
his cancerous eyes staring out wet mattes
of a mop of fresh red and blonde
this was opportunity dreaming of rubbing itself
dreaming of matchsticks of ovulating snatch
stroked with wet tips of zealous cock
stoking coal of an ember loving itself
winding up ashes in boxes in a diluted eternity of dirt
no judge is a jury in alleyways
all are amputated newborns in trashcans
peddling with dime bags of crank and whale blubber for soap
if it smokes all the same or not in the end
a Jesuit Pelican bleeding from its eyes
peckering at its waist for its younglings
who never learn to pecker for themselves
breaking into paper machines
watching ink becoming battered wives
and jewish children praying for the Irish
chubby Sunday papers with coupon fingertips
its forehead a headline Granny Blows out Brains
just to survive for foreclosure
and cell phonic gunslingers twirling
crusted hands to digital sidearm and ringtone
calling to a suicidal America
that is not calling back
X. For God and Ulster
in the Zabruder Cosmos
young men are sleeping on elevated trains
in dull commuter eyes watching smoking metal caskets
driving by in narcotic exhaust fumes
canoodling lover bumpers six inches apart
honking internal bugles of Reveille at stop lights
on thin strings of untying highway
of a black corset on narrowing waists
of a dashed angel into a lovers night
desperately segragating demons of the fleash
from angels of the soul For God and Ulster
from Irish history including Catholics
White Supremacy still existing in monkey skulls
rowing ships in Amistads of broken Africans
colored dogs between gouged whipping post
and humility of oppresive collar
gouting proudly for paycheck and application
too freshly uneducated to give up seats
still boarding fake railroads to Underground Freedom
punching bus passes with food stamps
unceasing centrifugal Cadi rims with baby’s milk money
Fatherhood never realised on malotto faces
as if autistic children from the Inside Out
young men too busy dreaming of servitude to thumping gods
in distorted fragments of Hip-Hop radio dial
perching boom box on bus seats like melodic toddlers
being born average making themselves common
crotches making into waistlines with boxers labels
carrying pride in hand fulls of pull up denim
these young men do not dream of being Fathers
standing posthemous in symbiotic dole lines
listening to echoing gun chambers
when babies are too hungry to smile
and sleeping at the OK Compton Corral
crawling in fecal engorged diapers
along matress-less bottoms of toyless cribs
there is Cosmos in babies eyes
a nebula in full bloom of the human star brittle
swirling solar systems of imagination
microcosming behind orbs of human doll
predecessing onesies and fleece rompers
crying into a thick plastic air of crack
hoarse in a toddler funnel of nowhere
wide eyed and mouths gaping in thunderstruck stare
the God i know doesn’t suffer the babe
during her old time gospel hour on late night AM
eventually all young men are dreaming of identifying
a third shooter from proverbial grassy knolls
hidden in plain sight on Zabruder film
headless corpses copulating American throats
silently raping inarticulating elementary innocence in Teletubby TV
lint-filling pockets pulled gnarled and half bitten
like dingo ears on New Zealand prairies
of Us left abandoned or have abandoned Ourselves
this inner space cosmos in all its temporal concavity
of spinning hypocritcial wheels alongside
pollocks of orange striped safety barrels
where county prisoners are picking at manhole scabs
and breaking up ancient alignment of asphalt ditches
them young men use to dream of the Fall of America
Naked Lunches and holy Beat Commiseration
reading browning pages of American chapbooks
Ghost Dancing with headless feathers,
nylons on foreheads, ectoplasmic Hemingway,
creating Avatars for disjointing social pages,
deleting at will paper trailing friendships with guilt
this was before the ineluctable self came
in narcissistic rotunds of midsection of Without
scuttling along streets by yowling fish markets
where tattooed dolls throwing bohemian salmon and cod
wearing slap of rubber apron in midnight fantasy
and rolled-eyed herrin wrapping themselves in paper pinatas
like smelly scaly geisha in yesterdays print
opening lotus blossomed guts for debit swipe
watching as tourists laugh in yellow facade of people parade
like Carnis heckling in conjecture of weight
stuffed bear offertory for obesity misnomered
Men Without Countrys in convertibles and white hats de rigueur
mayorically waving to sidewalks of dead eye votes
cursory circling of Lee Harvey or grassy knoll
unfaltering selector levels aiming down range
with God and Ulster subterfuging inside delusional heads
and starving shells still loaded inside the penetralia of the soul
XI. the Funeral Pyre of
the Unforgiven
young men once dreaming of making cosmos matter
applying social tourniquets to Pork Barrel artery
and noose to impropering elected vagabond
with multi-mansion and hydroxy wives
made into bags of indescretion or overdose
like human syntax quivering their admissions
the little china men with bails of hay
peddling rickshaws for jade eyed rider
and two coins for the Holy Holy Riverman
men on Lincoln’s nose wandering North by Northwest
eventual revenants of Unforgiven lost in pyre
self risen marching for 39 Steps into Haven
beneath sad sunbeams with severed sun tangled arms
reaching into explosions of shattering rooms
sunsplotched hand grenades with pulled pins
opening windows for old man stench
and exhaling cigarette smoke before sacred interuption
loud veerts of asses mid-flatulation
silently cropdusting golden doorways
shopkeepers waving against infestation of invisible fies
a semi shirsheing sprays of must into highway air
waving back to Yosemite Sam
wagging with pistols on ears of mudflaps
like a metallic hound with pistolera ticks and not enough bullet
eyes screaming blind in sunlight ricochet into hollow orbs of Forget
and mouth contorting in bites of cheese sandwich
jaws ringing like starving church bells
after evenings of Jaigermeister shots
a smell of jasmine and coffee walking out loud
along sidewalks masking in fading garden
with daffodil faces in closing Shakespeare audience
singing hymns of metric rhyme
fingers of sunflowers stretching themselves
out into yellow circular rings
like fat girls twirling in hoola-hoops
their chubby green stalky legs under them
having realised that dreaming is of tomorrow anyway
this young man with hang nail memory
with nauseating stomach churning, turning,
leaning into a rusty dumpster bucket bone
pigeons peckering through bits of chowder
this young men is dreaming of living out loud
in unchaste forearms of Mother America
her virginity lost in backseat theaters
where the sounds out of her box are muffling
into car windows of no one listening
we who are walking in concrete easement with dead things
accepting how dead cats looks like home
with the lights always off
bloating with wandering eyes toward sky
and no one there to help them through Eternal Homework
just scraping shit from a litterbox
reminding me of road kills in Floridian aquaducts
with smiling gators and their furry teeth
sloshing into baptismal dinner water
miles from Everglade glass of briny water
where the Egret befriends Death in a delta
adjusting truths of ever crooked lazy eyes
praying that cemetary grass is freshly mowed
for minuettes of marching souls of this Comic Cosmos
praying for drum roll of a legion of drummer boys
leading us quietly into that cerulean morning Reveille
them readying for the smop of lumpy heads plopped off
from their conscience hinges onto red-ripe funeral pyre
or into junk heaps of scrap-splooge stem cell
young men most agreeably do not dream of burial
of cremating, hole swallowing, running over or throwing up
by a wheezing two ton Belvidere with no insurance
like scraping bulldozer plowing up mass grave
they don’t dream of identifying bodies familiar
waiting for stasis to pop of curling window shade
to raise their immovable eyelids back to life
of dithery morgue rooms with soulless Coroners
imbibing smoking in spite of fourteen hour shifts
purchasing real estate for plot and hole and posterity
fluffing concrete pillows with wreaths of plastic lilac
considering that hollow eyes will no longer be needed
there is no use for eyes in Hell anymore than a match
supposing Lucifer a good southern hostess
sweet tea and burnt cornbread for All
XII. the Holy Slow Train
the cosmos was greying to this young man
hope was a lover walking out yet again
leaving a warm mess of adulterating pajama
and me cleaning remains of a sticky, wet spot
this young man was dreaming of anything new
shortening bowling lanes, swimming in snake beds,
running miles away with attenuating faith,
with black lab, languid old jeep and life string rose-red untwining
bunk- rooming with child molestors and imminent porn stars
sweeping up crumples of Venus de Milo love letters
from married ex-girlfriends writing their dreams awake
their ink striking edge of paper in sour cyclolithic matchstick
conveniently detained behind MySpace and four thousand miles
weeping in IMs of unfaithful husbandry
yammering in stories of aching wine bottle and marooned clit
palpitating in sleepless inexcitable marital sheets
condemning and unsatisfied with wraiths of wedding vow
never once dreaming of an end to this cosmos
deacons still passing plates for an offering delayed
buck knifing penises into roadside brush
ringing doorbells with holy holy holiday shotguns
nebbish housewives reflecting in pools of neighbors coagulation
for God, ulster, country, wine or barbituate
consummating the phallic wrongs
with banshee vaginal rights of this our Americana
seemingly exhausting all succubant failures first
along spaghetti rails of a moonlit Holy Slow Train
young men are now dreaming in insular eyes
moving on to neighbors wife or daughter
having psychodelic menage a trois with Ezra
contorting declarations of Americana and tears,
seizing wrists of Hallelujah beaten children
only to prostrate Glory Glory vestal Mary
giving birth to ruination and avant gard reincarnate
miles of juxtaposing details in luminous wanderlust
crackling bails of hay in picketed lofts
setting midnight ablaze with red haired schoolteachers
applying ointments to itch of crotch
until death do they part the preacher says
and so it comes quicker beneath stealing hands
burying brides in trunks of watery easements
and grooms in gardens with black soil tux
no one dreaming of L O V E anymore
etching and plinking into marble headrests
fallacio of false adulations of faithful husbands
looking down from necks of cornflower tie
into surviving orbs of Wife
complaining neglected in Armani Reds zoots
stuffing into six foot boxes with jizzing hooker pics
and two more coins for the Riverman there
Death is a blazing sow that is always hungry
repelling notions of jacklighting sickles
probing into boarish night of infinite bedazzle
until maggots are chitter-chattering in windows of the skull
this ending of the customary cosmos stream
a rusting can of flesh hides left jerking in cresting sun
fusing into bags of weed and ink pen pipes
high as a googling baby face coping with reality
into the soft Haven of beer goggled satin
a reflective paradigm of self-anecdote
where black laced thighs ride high on poker tables
in whispering conversations of mispronounced sigh
stuffing twenty dollar bills by the handful
damnable eyes blinking into smoky scintilla of disco ball
turning glints to fuck-dreaming of naked shadows
of dancing banshees into midight candle flame
mewling at 3 a.m. THfUMP of lover
breaking silhouettes as if moon-sliced falling out of bed
disappearing dybbuks into black doorways
shades of blank mama-night corduroys
tip-toeing one night stands clambering out windows
as if the madden dead may rise up alluded
fumbling for bus passes and skid marked whities
asses squelching open asphyxiation of morning
down marginal libretto of a daybreak sidewalk
expulsing individual embryos for life gravida
watching from outside pitious eyes of a sage homme
palms wrist up into heavenly uterus
young men are dreaming of cheating the undetaker
of knocking back years with prescription pills
fighting inevitable urge to spiritually Translate
riding Harleys in Heaven with tube topped babes
craven proletariat rotting on geriatric herbarium
aghast of becoming smelly truckers with smokestack eyebrows
nubbing toothless gums into truckstop victuals
thumbing pages of nudie mags with steering wheel hands
keeping metal boxes between forever white lines
praying to Almighty God on a CB microphone
or dialing suicide hotlines for free lunches or Chic-fi-la coupons
listening to Rush Limbaugh on all-day radio
modern citizenry are not dreaming of turning lathes
of blowing glass or bending bumper steel and license plates
attending mass or climbing out of bottles divine
hoarding at astronomical knees like children of immeasurable machinery
or deified panties of young girls in that same Waffle House
dabauching geezers are dreaming of winking at the paperboy
in terry cloth bathrobe and slow-melting popsicles
racing sprinklers to the edge of lawn dilletante
and the lewd Catholic priest seranading across the street
until sequestered in dentured grins and formaldehyde
as wormfood incommunicado beside lumps of pedophiles
Boy Scoutmasters and nymphomaniacal hounds of wail
with plicated hands in chocolate laiden pocket
in adulterated hopes of children in flaming night gowns
sitting on toilets so long for a shat their feet fall to sleep
apparitions of choirs of naked boys by lakes of fire
quenching perverted tongues in hells of brimstone Oasis
those same parasitical bastards of children
now old men laying beside battered wives
or creeping along to their blank hole
joints howling from lifeless tombs in hospital beds
pissing red into hand cans and on nurse legs
burying themselves with styrofoam flowers
and dead flies on an infinite window sill
strangely complaining about death from warbling mouths
of animals who have had to just live
XIII. Through Television Eyes
into Cosmic Fade
no longer bleeding from slit wrists of human Gomorrah
no longer dreaming of Atlantis and a waitress ass
like convicted cowards behind retinal bars
dreaming is becoming sodomy of the duped
mangled tubes of empty K-Y on motel nightstands
dreaming is becoming stolen Bibles of Gideons or New World Order
in fetal curled asylums of the same hotel rooms
nicotine tingeing of cigarette butts on tubskirts
and crayons of makeup for failing marriages
no one fucks Lady Scaramouche anymore
watching bareback canoness being buried beside hookers
both spread eagle on parallel armed crosses
virgins buried abreast cadavers of strippers
refracted in colossal prismatica left immaterial
like watching fragments of pay-per-view
in sodded humdrum under cosmic spotlight of stars
watching purgatoried hitchikers under raven wing of night time
pecking buxom worm from fast food trays
incubated heat lamp dynamo winking one eye down
the brainsick madman behind the counter
diffusing twisted ends of a pencil thin mustache
in a perma-grin love affair with teeny-bopper cashiers
watching thunderous guitars blur into talismanic wands of MTV
voodooistic reverbs and shamn riffs on Headbangers Ball
Cable God and his minions of puppeteering on strings
sublimating from frizzy faces of four feet speakers
from one eyed shrews of blue-toothed CD players
in sermons of Saint Anger from a carpet pulpit
watching Air Jordans hotfooted and wagging tongues
legends climbing into constellations of market share
where planetariums pay homage to existence
their pudgy circles orbiting godliness
in rings of of cosmic diamonds and rave
watching pitchers hit homeruns cuz the chicks dig the long ball
and tearing out ACLs with plastic sporks
of having overdosed them to bone brittle
flipping a hundred channels of narcoleptic stare
every fifteen minutes of meaningful drama poorly interupted
by twelve dancing rabbits with toilet paper
laughter-loving children who once were irresistable forces
now mummifying into immovable objects
giving birth to billions of remote controls for vision sake
growing old with eyes like cantaloupes and no brain behind them
watching waves run like wet dogs along beaches
their salty tails wagging into pools of skin-breakers
their starving hound nostrils in clumping sand and Cheetos
beside venerable white-haired lady and her Universal Lie
in a metal detector for reposing retirement
this human hope of prolonging man’s irrevocable torment
engaging with autistic dimensia of lover-hood
proposing to prophesied wives in Japanese Shangri-la
looking up like wanting coy from a pond of austere knees
shooting heart up through phiz of broken glass
and left wheezing in rejection on her lap
watching facades slip into alterior conscience
traveling into caves of ancient beastial divination
scrolling pages of holistic medicine or retardation
with shaking fingers and pang of hallucinagenic hangover
waiting for someone to answer in a room of deaf
awaiting slip of blade from gospel torreador
staring back with autistic eyes and imbroglio
weeping at the solace of their passing
furrowing into rabbit holes after that skinny bitch
her shrooms and mescaline breath always unattainable
lolling in spent lover sheets in sweating withdrawal
finding comforts in alleyways with someone elses daughter
in illusionary prom dresses and skinned up knees
like plastic dolls atop a wedding cake
why is Barbie killing the American woman?
making her up in two story and pink Corvette
and sending her off to vowing church with Ken
XIV. the Succubus Years
truth is i dont remember roaring through my twenties
dreaming through those succubus years,
flying like gods crowning out of molotov fire
snorting like whores misguided in narcotic philanthropy
alcoholic bellydancing of ABC store variety
lightning in some bone bottle running wild
in mental masturbations of opposite polarity
where the hands just won’t leave me be
weed on Fridays morphing into bleached white portals
stolen Saturdays waking in noonday haze
behind spackling marble of bloodshot eyes
unable to rearrange truth out of clean white teeth chatter
getting pasted in Nirvana inside helmet sized Cuervo-ritas
drinking manna from fish bowls in festooning lips
cocks in prowling hand; nobbing dark circles of cunt
like one eyed battle-axes behind picket fences
rising in wet chin-welts like sexual Lazarus
after unlocking Esquiline Gate to an empty cross
watching friends plicking ends of choking out ciggies
into paper ash cans and calcinating spit cups
standing in jowls of biting cold just to feel conjointed
friendships are afterhour rainchecks in retail
condensation on a work whistle soon evaporated
closer than that suicidal witch’s womb
i was unthoughtfully extracted from,
head tearing her convicted entrails to a vermillion red
like predatory snakes molting out of colonic ecydsis
and like some mother’s when the bleeding’s done
slithered away into a deeper grass
her sister-loving self resting in cloudless atmospheres
like cherubs in striped pajamas self professing Auschwitz ashes
buildiing the kiln box one brick by hand
two by everyday abandoning
tormenting herself inside a new metal womb now
lost and not buried, sacrilegious and beheaded
in self-loathing and liquidity of giving up
a transcendental accident of drug induced abduction
hauled into a shallow outer space
where the fruit of Eden has been tasted
and left peeling in a human rind along her sofa
her curdling apartment still reaking
making window for firemen and a peeping Lucifer
with jittery television still tuned to cooking show
swigging cooking sherry into sunrising throats
there are no gua-rawn-tees for the dead
waking up clot eyed, numb-stiff and bone groggy
a sedated disfigurine in thick tufts of cotton fog
escaping hallways of cognitive hedonism
crying Moloch! Moloch! with rocking cradle
away from lion-headed iron rod fire poker
with large metallic teeth and small hands
with biting lips of baby faced diamonds in my head
always whining for something more
so in feeding them teenage skin from pouting shoulder
decidely casting shadows as long as lifetime
young men dreaming of hitchhiking across continents
penniless swagmanthology of being on the run
is more enlightening than running to somewhere
where the ticket stays unpunched
removing barricades of of left out ideals
in dreams of puking by light of train track
stuffing groves of rotten cucumbers
haunted insane by vinegar into nine year old gagging gullet
away from George Jones seeping like dirty tar fingers
through epidermia of creaking floorboards
climbing like fat headed babes into cribs
or into broken down jolopy of canned metal
resembling the rumble of abandoned racecar
or expended carcass of Phoenixian goddess
their red heads cracked; their rubbery legs unshaven
like sun chewed whores in a microcosmic junk yard
away from snakes from a creekbed hanging from green afro tree tops
away from combing tines picking out nappy heads
in shady haunches outside the woodline
as if Helter-Skeltering moths in a lampshade
or devotees of Bacchus anxiously waiting outside liquor store
humming beneath a vagrant eye of parking lot
coonhounds yowling two yards away from sunset
fading to black under pressed moon thumb
pencil lines trailing away from drawn houses
through chainlink and leafy faced boscage
smelling of stale carton cigarettes and Chaps
wanderlusting until chemical dependency diffused
or come jejune snore of finally passing out
away in early morning debouchment of sun regiment
shirshing of waking treetops in teenage hair mattes
fingernails tapping against pairs of clear skull windows
shining in a cycloptic eye over cum stained city life
and incalculable wet spots attenuating into crusty carpet
ring-wormed cup circles seeping into antique wood
fucking twang of endless George Jones hanging up
like smelly old man socks in bromidic bourbon air
i was dreaming of forgetting to remember those years
those juke-boxed drowning vinyl babies
with record player foreheads torn off
crawling with the Jimmy’s Kingsnakes onto tapestries
breathing in sows of inoculation
curling panties down writhing thighs into mewl
and giggling with moist spiccato of fingers
girls are cumming in palms on rooftops of pasty wizen men
above sifted exhaling of uncorked bar breath
parties in emerald backyards of beerbottle brush
sharing alleys of puking with crack whore skeletons
behind alabaster faces, blowing hard
these California-angeled Sunflowers fisting scrotum and dollar bills
wiping corners of drizzled mouths in collegiate kerchief
waving smiles to the White House cameras blooming
like lilies in hands of parading prom queens
piggy backing to nowhere in a used Cadillac
i was forgetting faces from bigotry riots
broken negroes hanging in neon portholes
somehow smiling in their beaten faces
like black mannequins in awnings
uneducated crackers with scraped off handguns
shooting out streetlights and aiming for God
hawtpink t-shirted college drop-outs hiding under pig tails and large breasts
like porn propaganda for bourgeois media
licking her lips and arching back for common Barbie-mania
forgetting smell of damp CS gas in misty morning fog
inhaling clarity of translation into perfect enunciation
forgetting us dogs of war let aloose and unkept
with wet flea bites of military chemistry
a lit fuse spidering along arms of dynamite
noses untapping and spouting under stomp of riot boots
ablutionary sheets of disengaged motorcycle rides
sucking in mephitic cannabis at 4:20 with friends
in a square park where no one mattered
framed in a fence of no one cared
letting loose bulging black liners into stretching echoes of rag and bone
we were barnamizing smoke into circus rings
jeering rodeo-clown police in academy gym shorts and Ray-Bans
we were bullying ourselves onto Chelsies like oxymoronic hobos
liberating burn holes into suburban history of sophisticates
their eli eli white lab coats tending flock
and we heard Ginzap crying Moloch! Moloch! in the night
shipping subordinate packaged minds anywhere outside American Pomerium
heads psychotropically mangled into thoughtless shoulder cans
along rickety railroads and interstates beneath oilskin of nighttime
her molasses hair dripped back against lace clouds
under pretenses of finding indians lost in hymns of Geronimo
this is how i was forgetting that angels existed
sitting my ass in branny paperback chapbooks
sniffing white powders of poetic effigy
inside leopard print pews where words were making themselves
sweet as virgin fruit from yearning schoogirl vine
masturbating in flashes of star-spangled white arse
by curtainless apartment window barefoot and broken versed
twiddling gardens of closed gated virgins
misshaping screams into climbing walls
flicking neon against brittle creaks of well-worn headboard
this was how this young man lost his dreaming
keeping that bitch of meretricious time at bay
wispy old books being alienated for white ones
emptying stirrup cups of frothy psychoses
through reverberations of beer head and monkey nuts
walking benumbed into blue-green slippers of the Pacific
cauterizing flat feet into blue clumps inside ancient socks
indiscretions like disfiguring howls from birth canal
weeping with homosexual boneflowers
wilting along unforgiving stems and lesions
forcing imagination into rabbit holes of exctasy and martini
keeping vantage lateral and unfixed
waking under red eyed mornings like hung over pandas unsmiling
glittered hair and familiarly sore asses
stumbling from unemployment lines into empty parking lots of bars
and writing alternative country lyrics until passing out
breathing arcane mountain air through millions of dead capillaries
instead of joining the White Arrow holocaust
or subjegating packs of rabid Buddhists
i was busy burying oil slicked bones under American agenda
plunging unfathomable bores into fidgeting underwater veins
burning carcass in pyres of bonewood
i was forcing childish eyes to see
when asians were being chased into hills of cedar trunk and hiding
when governments were dropping notices of ticking intervention
wide metallic smirks of absolution
through sweating palms and mudhut villages
subtle reminders of enlarged penis, pissing on islands to make continents
making blue eyed brunettes from slanted wombs
or dying from crabs of an unwashed sailor
bruised and naked on steel sheets
squinting eyes to rearrange an awkward truth into porch light
heads hanging on bony posts forgetting what alarm clocks wake them
orbital prisoners caged by self serving retinal bars
looking intelligent and bursting promises like congressmen at elections
foreheaded eyes barreling into a face of porcelain rejection
after moaning under toilets and reciting puke through the night
overhead a ghost of Nina Simone whispering smoky in one ear
from cosmic speakers of Big Box bathroom stall
with the smell of throw-up and feces
mouths blowing chunks like whistles into a circle of plastic rim
face framing from the inside; reminding me of egg soup
the smelling of noodles and sour mash whiskey
contorting with a pungent reaking of piss puddle
every Saturday was turning vast and familiar
unrelenting forgiveness in a chain of Catholic rosary
squawking of middle eastern taxi
with patchouli and cheap cologne
smelling of city bus diesel under cloud of two-day libation,
mowing lawns of literary sod,
leaving excrement as learning compost
wandering 4 a.m. moon licked streets in search of Buddha
singing Moloch! life has brought in the sheaves
protestants in Goth black and circling tambourine eyes
gathering along fuzzy red velvet sofas
holding hands and dousing chaotic incantations
baristas handing out headless cappuccinos
making ways into grumbling lattes for nervous babies
and heavy metal chests rattling in tin can hearts
listening with ears to winds like shards of broken glass in a windstorm
silently flattering the panting of the Wolf
where the tongue will always keep the ears deaf
devising ideals to row out of the Loch of Ness revealed
and revelate to this machinery of mankind
to sickly remedy our unconscious mind volta
keeping the SwagManthology rolling above ground
to keep myself from being rolled beneath it
the ripening stagnancy of decomposing hangover ghosts
and like all Saturdays of succubus
uncuring in cancerous tumor of daybreak
left sucking bone for life and molten marrow
scrawny and unwilling to be removed Eternal
succumbing to plowing under new roots
with aging seedlet rind eyes
re-sodding for some other rising of Boneflower up through stone
writing in a new sick language to masturbate for themselves
whether be it in offices in a fourteenth floor
where they eventually throw or are thrown from
or inside corpses of empty bourbon bottles
where an undertow is rolling them sadly beneath her sour mash tongue
coming to necessary end and myopic refraction
to an inevitable blinding
to degeneration and millenia of abandoned festering
this truth remains i don’t remember menstruating through my twenties
in fragments of broken alternative radio
or writhing under rose oiled fishnetted thighs
staring at negroes still being beaten and chinese making me soup
with buried headstones for parent and suicidal urn for jewelry box
i don’t remember those things and bid them gone
they can haunt some other Smoking Tomb of crypt
i am releasing them to dirt, or air, or shallow ditch of a grave
with a crackerjack spade i cover their severed limbs
leaving respite to open wind and dim forgetting
abstracting their thoughtless little minds
into colorful crayons of chimeric chickabiddy
i am abandoning them to small glass petris in introspection
of a million dying fireflies of inhuman star brittle
leaving unstitched and loosely strung
as if worn out toys in closing apocolyptic toybox
i am severing useless arms from sacks uncarried
in THfUMP of bastardizing disrobe
sutchering scar with twine of Nevermore
unscreening back porches of wild dingos
for a nighttime Hitchhiker to gather
as a raven, a negroid, an anvil or a fist
and to butcher their barking bone with open sore
leaving this piece of sarcophagus prose this year
for worms to feed for a thousand more
‘69 Dead Sled
by Solomon Fink
I. the Ideal of Men
Dreaming of the Free
younger men are always dreaming free,
their hearts in centrifugal winds of youthful fervor and forgetting
like sunflowers in concrete fields dismissing of pollen
while gelatinous cogs of mind machinery slowly age to rusty canned helmets
duty becoming a common unborn child cutting itself free
honoring mysogynistic scraping of a cervical balloon
and i was wearing thin this skin bag of cause and effect
i was becoming a free man of idealistic dreams
and gathering my sanity into a gunnysack slung onto my back
to step out among the stars, one thrombone heel before the next
i was becoming a Mutjahre on the waltzing away from Mother America
her souring tits were empty to these thirsty lips
and with that dry taste of abandonment i awoke
anulled from the sleep of my human birth
these bones were chromium and burnt orange steel
pinions of earthen dust from an Infinite Mechanic
towed in the recollections of a umbilical
watching scenes from the windshield play out loud
like motions in front of a ‘69 dead sled
joining the collection of mass burial plots prepurchased
chosing to tear off the burdened man’s rearview for reaction sake
marring the open wound of bitterdom until it trickled
i was becoming a younger man choosing dreaming of action
over concrete quid pro quo of rubberstamp consequence
young men of this generation were no longer dreaming of either
of drowning in fire or burning in water
only of warm, wet pools of astroglide and thigh highs
amphetamine driven into foothills of bar wnches
following ridge lines of Americana Ass through gates
into the Valley of the pink Lotus
in their camo-condoms and mountaineering lensatics
fingers marching, forked words beguiling,
to have the Valley open right up
a fresher blossom on an earlier grave with a locked gate
i was seeing these faces before pheramone flushed cheeks
and after sheets soak-spent in shades of hollow sweat
with quivering quads and convulsing muscles
i was seeing them lay as willing as bony buttercups
yellow buds spread wide to the moon
yet young men were still dreaming of more fields
that broken stink of fermented loam just there
just outside Christ jumping off his crooked cross
i was dreaming of becoming marrowless Hollow Bone
a scholar of gentlemanly proportion with weed and mescaline
a sage, a vessel, up all night with starry tokers
walking from ocean to ocean, 17th Street to Big Sur
cracking King Crabs legs at sunrise
before watching John Denver go down in in sunset
this is life wandering, theaters of uncircumcised
panting against ticket booths of those foreskins snipped
standing unaware and aloof with Uncle Walt
our barbaric yawps bouncing across rooftops
of tinking tin or gasping of clay asphalt
over brown-box ghettos of sleeping babies
mulling trailor parks into red-white blur of open highway
i was dreaming of freeing myself
unchaining this elastic leash ever snapping back
and i, another of its stark raving lunatics
foaming from an incorrigible jaw
i, an erupting pubescent Saint of Hormone
bones stretching in age of concaving air,
eyes rearranging teenage ratio to manly veranda
this i give birth from hands of Sage Homme
reincarnating one tickity-tick of non-stop meat-clock
i am myself stepping from atomic graveyard alone,
from under Old Glory and Army dress greens
blue infantry smile tucked under arm
and three stripes down in rime of rear view
and all of my abstaining sins following
toward my terminal point of damnation
but door to door prophecying at strip clubs
and popping little blue realities with Tangueray
intergalactic nebulas in frothy bloom
making it to Memphis on a hundred bucks of borrowed cash
getting stomped in before bawling and wail
sipping day-old grinds from chipped porcelain
making it to the home of pomeade, jug bands
and a black baby named Rock n Roll
dirty faced pawnshops, the roasting smell of pit barbecue,
melting of alleyways plastic and burnt crackpipe pens,
sweating skin like waxy candles under lowlit wicks,
white headed sprigs of cotton jumping from a Mississippi Delta
dancing naked after Beale Street shuts her drunken eyes
sipping SoCo through a sissy straw and teasing Socio-babes
with their silicone minds and fake breasts straining bikini
before throwing up a morning sun with street sweep
i usually dream of popping heads off Barbie dolls
since walking out of prosthetic childhood
slow-killing premeditation of woman and the holy holy natural
them coloring clowns in heels and silicone
while they’d bob their horse-hair heads into barrel tubs
of swollen pant apples and pelvic overloading
back doors being kicked in by G.I. Joes or Stretch Armstrongs
them pigtails now plastic ponies circling bar top tables
chasing highest bidder or malted beverage
painted skin-canvas in Mac counter rainbow
and Abercrombie sweaters pushed two different shades
smelling of jasmine, honeysuckle, rose
and radiator moonshine
young men were dreaming of drinking with best mates
younger men were dreaming of dreams lilting in dreams
where sovereignty becomes a redneck disproportionate
with a whisper atomizing away in hillbilly bravado
human hearts regulating homeostatically within gaps
smelting like hammocks of mule manure
and karaoking Islands in the Stream with Dolly Parton
floundering dollars and shoes along broken brick roadways
to an Oz on an oasis somewhere in this nowhere
imma a bottle-caught wizard in red ruby Chuck Taylors
chunks of liquored oatmeal in bibulous throats,
circles of soused drool stain in tatty jeans
holding flower petals to main drag gangstas;
overweening rose petals into unwound lowrider windows
reechoing metallic clicks from a recessed room of boozehound cerrabelum
this is a young man dreaming in bubbles of unspoken air hole
mentioning Buddha and the Kaballah Cadillacs
no longer threat to chromium steel or crematorium
even hell has angels watching over in eliptical shoulders
cadres of starry cataracts through tunnels of scar tissue black
thoughts effusing down a brick sided nightclub is short of celestial
and as pungent as the virgin martyrdom of Starry Dynamo
smells of deflowered pussy and vibrating jelly bottle
tainting placebo of Motherhood wrapped thirteen times
shoved off the ends of bedroom gallows
now pendulous in white halo rings around streetlights
prom queens with half shirts stretching in 88s and thunderbolts
neon twirling panties in bijou hoola-hoop hands establishing pelvic synagogues
and doling out strands of pearl broken from noose
cigareetes falling with only lipstick headed butts
and disjointed stalks of menthol amputated
their last exhales of nervous nicotine and city hallways
Ecstacy in stoning thrusts of midnight freight train
a million babbling faces along ancient cobblestone
their amok mouths dribbling like spoken semen
where the Condom always runs away with the Spoon
II. the Dochotomy
of a Swagman
a Greyhound to Denver was giving credence to divinity
autistic ears listening to phonetic thunderings
like nugatory miming of Charlie Chaplin
fleeing conjugal suppositions of wedlock;
diamonds are chintzy substitutes for cock rings anyway
hearts wind up spooning ice cream and love letters
meliorating into panty troves along carpet
contemplating martyrdom for a sisterhood of mother
burning the sacred Mother Bitch at stake
and chumming hands in new born feculent water
for cartalgenic faced sharks of diaper rash
getting high off ammonia and Similac,
instead of bourbon mash and black crosses
with Hooters girls in orange bikinis
a catharthic cleansing of counterproductive house
before mid-afternoon blowjob and Jerry Springer bathos
pushing the black mohair pins
up through the pitch eye of an all night needle
younger men are always dreaming of free
strangling wraiths with stringy hands
sans consequence to running down a naked sunset
squeezing the Phoenixian goddess right out
pursuing ten years of white-knuckled marriages
chasing that red headed bitch across western cerulean
inexoribly to sea salty mattresses of California seabank
toward Colorado where buildings are popping up in culteral pedantics
through warbling desert crack of syphollitic highway
and fragments of Gotta Keep em Separated from cosmic speaker
there is jasmine enbosomed in mid-summer fever
sweating off tears of misanthropic one-eyed days of subdued stench of roadkill
or incensing truckers to rub their boxcar peckers to
divine purple tips like young girl hips
standing naked melodic in median dresses
Gods are met along highways, washed into ditches,
burned at mid-west stakes or attaining enlightenment
like Bhikkhuni heavily versed in Kama Sutra scrolls
God a golden gutarista beside crossroads of choreographed cosmos
humans but busted notes in infinite concerto
with wah-wah of ignornace always hammered on
peaks of Long and Pike helmets marching catwalks of mossy watch towers
as henchmountains with cirrose blue leather jackets
glorious straw bristle heads of sunflower
broadly shouldered thugs of glassy-eyed cascade
with toothpicks of forests dangling from corners of alveolar ridges
of blue spittoons of annular lake mouths
pushing albatross spectres upward to space
bleak grumbling balls rolling out onto highway
like popped white seltzer tablets
from beneath bedskirts of mountain tumble-weeding in Gunsmoke
and the stratosphere picking them up with dissenting moans
and beating the black out of white stripes of lightning
its little black boy gums bleeding open and dislocated
jumping out of view into hedge row of Pikes Peak
and a porch light flashes on their nappy afros in photonegative
as if field hands jinking from probing searchlight
their systemic hands in a line letting go
afraid of themselves and left blundering in blind veils
like abandoned babies dumped in bottomless trashcans
or billfold left dangling alongside a whorish chamber pot
challenging opposition to give dignity to the scorned
young men standing by cracked faced roadsides with ethereal dreams
asphalt twining out in flutes of black spotted tongue
with Samsonite and stickers of pin-ups and Eiffel Tower
curvaceous blonds sucking nicotine smokestacks
with perfect SPF and a hand full of Aces
apathetically watching eager milemarkers along I77
like resurrected cocks with an oozing mescaline eye
and echoes of Midnight Rider in canyon abysm
stirring sleeping goats with shit imbued fur
young men trading libations for oasis in Grand Junction motels
trading algid dusty Mojave blankets for Motel 8’s
or single beds of bar room trailor park girls
chasing that magnificent of holies Redheaded Porpagator
her unmistakable western ass hollering like an Aussie Drover
into fatiguing earlobes of Eastern Cattle
filling gas tanks and styrofoaming rings of coffee cups in Barstow outskirts
to catch glimpse of Hollywood ghosts cajoling by
leaning apparitions of grey haired James Dean
against skipping jukeboxes of starry Blackwell Corner
before shoving off to Forever-Wind
paralleled on some intricate roadsides of vinyl rhumb line
his hair still sticking in the clouds for descrying sake
or on the bark of some defunct Joshua tree
ambling their Mojave rims alienated and without Holy Trinity
aggragating banshees in shades of blowzy cattle
those pale faced horns in cultus vanity
consuming crones in silver metal granaries behind Silver Springs
mimicking bromidic trailheads in witch hunts
to quartz mirrors of Devils Playground
jingling in halls of Norad and reflecting fractions of electricity
a perpetual volta of a cumulonimbic figurine
snapping like anarchic ends of a titanic wrist
lashing mountain backs in momentary welts
ferocity with the serenity of a pirhouetting ballerina
cry! cry! you orphanage of beaten sky!
looking for remnants inside a younger mans bones
snow gyring up in blistering belts to imbricated waists
white powder stirring up like cooing pidgeons shewed
from cavernous rooftops of altitude and bird shit
finding glints of recollection in Academy Blvd. pool halls and caliginous dive jukes
with forty year old trixies with Jordache daughters
bastardizing German accents across pool tables to get laid
unbuttoning blouses of geniality into out loud caterwaul
drunken tomcats groping into limp cricketeering bowlegs
nine ball tournies were Fetanyl for champions of human dynamo
and dead marching enebriation for bar stool stooges
Moloch! Moloch!
working amongst Vulgus of a local mall for take-home and beer dole
bartering sneakers for booze and flashes from Hooters gals
for ice sacked pitchers of Coors Light and matchstick hand jobs
from orange shorted legging girls with their push up bras in fists
afterhour sex sweat as redolent as chicken grease
and daubs of scuzzy civet and store-hound eau du toilette
from discounted perfumerias or JC Penneys or roadside pup tents
twelve year old ratty haired fence jumpers
selling turquoise and crab legs with illegal Mexican accents
making change with concertina scraped palms
pressing 1 for english translator rolling rosary between thumbs
folded stemmed waists of sunflower magnifica
smoldering love affairs with blackberry eyes
olive limbs as smooth as acrylic tubs
mouths as savory round as gas pumps
getting orbs of nakedness into silver pellet shower storms
lathering penasia and vulva in hand savagery
scrubbing and screwing in suds for sake of virginity
pores exhaling feculence in steamy mikvah bliss
consoling to All-Night Bible Hour on public radio
with blackwashed shadows of the Rockies catatonic over every shoulder
suckling teets of rain cloud nipples under shawled Apache maidens
reminding white-skinned America of La Belle Sauvage
washing into Colorado Springs noon time or interupting lunch
pushing faces of climbers off rocks at Garden of the Gods
as if ants in body harness and defying gri gri
mouths aching with thirst of desert tongue
this was the dreaming of a twenty year pauper
self stolen before those succubus years of dizziness
wrapped with legs of smoothly shaven waitress girls
ears drenched in lobe spittle and lip gloss
and starving pants of heaving breasts
when warm beer and cool pussy would eventually run itself dry
III. in the Bone Courtyard
of Traveling Kings
young faces like timestamped skin-emmets making separate ways to California
riding golden railways to tofu, junkies, tattoos and the American Slit
to valleys of drunken grapes, festering garlic and Time
that improprable, unpredictable gash of Nun
in bulleted tubes of Greyhound then Amtrak
with absolute faces of forgetting, just a knowing that they were
a few faded jeans congested into unhemming gunnysack
from duffle, then drab of camo Alice pack
eventually into plastic overhead compartments
with empty peanut wrappers and aluminum foil
voracious mouths eating dried salisbury steaks and moon pies
from torn off ends of unexpiring MREs
peanut buttering in spoons of discovering portability
stuffing cheeks with dry cracker or unleavened bread
until our shit wadded up for days
in premenstrual shit cramps and migraines
lamenting eyes becoming sizzling electric headlights
of two howling freight trains across forehead tracks
finally letting loose of curdling bowel ropes
into porcelain baskets at rest stops in crescendo
2 maybe 3 flushers of peanut butter and cheese
in stain rimmed hoola bowls along I-70 corridor
like enigmatic Baba Gulabgir and his writhy cobras
naked and pissed off incensed in full-eye contact
their spreading helmets, hisses in nagging woman tongue,
leaving exhausted anal snakebites of red chafe
crosslegged thanking Ganesh for handicap bar
sitting so long our naked feet went to sleep
night bronzed noses of mice trampling through fields of buttercups
with yellow hands swaying at a Big Sky concerto
along piano wired threads of spiderlegged locomotive cicotrix
imagining virgin sodded heads peeking out from canted hoods
opening the holiest of blossoms for eye-roll and syrupy moans
miles on miles of banana studded stems for picking
and over-twenty-one glittery girlie FHM faces
sprouting untouched womanly burr of pink velvet
jimsonweed vast and unopinionated leaning in the wind
pollinating in breezes of masturbatory pubescence
chased by portly bumbles with taste of Hamunaptra nectar
unchaste and laying whoredoms in seed to wind
looking glasses of tinted train window capturing American Pomerium
doctors robed in tweed-suit and wingtips
peddling bottles of neon liquid at the feet of Jeezus
shutters flashbanging in nigrous raincoats
framing it with sottish eyes of travel sized rum
thumping fingers on foreheads with a midday sunfinger
whishing of hungover cycloptic eye banging with rollshade lids
in swelling blisters against skins of leper glass
explicative faces in molten circles of curious children
making love to ginger eyed Army gals in Fort Carson
rolled over under nine shuttering orgasms
her cat throat purring and yowling into shadows
diassembling M16s to making them absolute again
wiping sniffles of carbon black into government tissues
a carcass of 5.56 mm ammo faetaled in Vietnam memories
haunting misfires in sleeping thatch huts over baby heads
yellowing like its final turned page
while nursing a sister in carpel tunnel casts
make believing she was a mother and family
icy dead end streets meeting neck of highway
hindsight is burying a relative with a pulse
her feet chopped of tucked into pine box
with her soul Florida bound on an 11:05 to Boca Raton
living in hobo clothes on dollar bills and vending machines in Moapa Valley
sucking holes in soda cans for Holy Mary Fizzle
like making Bloody Marys in nun robes for third world Tse-Tses
dying a thousand times inside these cowardly sockets
men lying and afraid of telling the truth smoking rolled poison
hearing chatter teethed mumbles along spiral of metal wheel
humming in Aurora Borealis electrical storm
lardy Italians whistling at shadows on canyon walls
greasy haired and cabbage patched under jewelry
their iridescent gawk coming out of night
flitting along hummingbirds away from ourselves that way
dreaming in our young men appetite
from four thousand miles and forty hollow corpses
of stowed away Stoli and Jim Beam bottles
two gout stewardesses and an un-smoked ganga roll
ass-smacking on teeting tracks with rainbows of white pearls
pooling in runny yolks at the heels of boots
blithesome heads in fuzzy fidoras with imaginary goddesses
bouting up against fat swollen headed pillows
sneezing mustard gas in cramped spaces
etherizing like distilling water bags
whore bathing in steel pools of rest stop commodes
with spouts and flushes of swirling blue water
toothbrushes raking stale muffins
from between erupted pouches of bleeding gum
watching faces waltz out of confusion into foggy quo
as if sinister knowing with belted handguns
trigger-cocked and smiling rounds
their ashy corporate knees and scuffed porcelain teeth
women in chains in husband dungeons
pliers in melotto finger holds
knocking loose luster of all-resin crooked crowns
like plastic kings on thrones of bone teeth
cutting ties with enamel jesters
in a mouth under Spanish Inquisition
IV. Unraveling Stars of
Human Brittle
young men dreaming up asinine delusions as beliefs
waking up with mouthcaves of arse and chokedamp
after carnal fantasies with Hollywood starlets
blonde bombshells of iniquity and cutoffs
riding mechanical bulls at Gilley’s in carmine coats of sunburn
jumping naked in Belaggio’s open palms in Vegas Theravada
white piping fingers of a fountain whistle of blah
swaying gondolas and churn of spilling bleach river
distant chings of slot machines spreading surly thigh
for shiny bastards chuting into paper cups
staring madly at lawns of felt green card tables
where the angry Father earns college tuition in a visor
for a geek at MIT and smoking unfiltered Camels
and ass impaled by rainbow coalitions
headlights beaming down a narrow forehead of gelded desert road
in double barrelled cans chasing nigger of a hitchhiker
starry napped afro with white lined eyebrows
to the sounds of Ray Charles’ I Gotta Woman
laughing at how many times something has tried to kill it
prevailing inexhaustible swings from every failing
at the next douche of rinsing depluming sunrise
humming the morning after reveille of losing virginity
confounded by late hour schizophrenic faces of two different days
a dichotemy doing shots of Cuervo of opposite polarity
leaving a cut open wound of priest for penance
to step left footed onto a Barstow sidewalk for salvation
beneeath smells of arid ripe sand and backseat unshoed feet
wanking in filth of fifty cent condom
feeling Phillistinian set aloose from beating of broken rod
just to smile for cockatrice of a copperheaded dawn
staring into orange beads like a West Coast Basilisk
undoing eyes blinking into Los Angeles streetlights
leaving Saugus en route for that dusty throat of Big Bear
like ole Aub and Del in ghostly sheets across Rattlesnake Canyon
into High Sierras with pine whistles and chubby bass
buying Yoo-Hoos and beef jerky for lake trout
chumming with hot pink bits of aquatic ecstacy
driving those dawn floppers beserk jumping up through glassy rings
the early sunrise lights bouncing in red-orange carnivale
fat-headed sunflowers lulling with yellow faces
like obese children by the jingling candy truck
laying in clomps of field boot by netted bivouac
casting shadows of black forearms
out of the sleeves of robes on ends of trees
night becoming a lean-to with a holy constellation roof
and beer buzz hummed like blind choir boys
thwirping against the shrubs metronome
awaking to the march of the chainsaw eternal
in stingy gnarls and Brutus grunts of yellow mechanical beetle
Machine Man is stomping in grove faces with iron clad heels
kicking in green teeth and solar plexas of Demeter
shaking loose in Ten Petals of ignorance
settling debt of ancient siddhi with mouths of a hundred years
perpetuality of human worm with no beginning and no end
an unbalancing equation left hanging
in centrifical noose of an uninterupted pendulum
kinetic energy is accelerating in dreaming young bone vehicles
until arriving in a cabbage picking Fresno cowpatties
where mixed bags of legal and illegal aliens charge one-armed
through sun bitten hedgerows of vegetables
stuffing dollars into bra straps and box springs
so mijo can attend agricultural university to grow hashish
and prima can can learn Engrish on her back in dorm rooms
falling in line with trailor trash, spicks, wops, wetbacks,
crackers, neegroes, autties, pricks and theives
in fragments of college cunt on fire from Radio Nowhere
jabbed at by eager peckered boys following close behind
tuning in and turning on, radio knobs in one lathered hand
steroided jocks with purple headed veins gripped in the other
starving for a next fix of andro and cheerleader quim
muscles splitting, penises shrinking, brittle heads of nerve endings
a gaping end to losing chasms of spiritual conscience
snapping like necks of brittle field mice in traps
before tomorrow killing newborn and wife in jealous rage of shadows
in the name of a holy Christian army
questioning their trinity of faith by drowning in fire,
or giving up and lying down in it
murdering fathers in their black shadowy oilskins
pupils dilated in aborted doll eye stares
making passage in underground railroads
like hacked up parts of American Nigger still in chains
and nappy cotton heads fresh from one boat
boarding under sails of Flying Dutchman and troubador of another
Moloch! shot the bitch of America in the forehead for ten bucks and a gallon of oil
rode her naked ass down stairs of sovreignty for France
torches catching blaze in the pumpkin carved bullet holes
and a Senate of prickless gleeing their balls in murmurs of wheeee!
eye balling white cans of face paint and wooly-bully wigs
oh college of the damned! walking immigrants alive in cocoa butter
wrapping scrotums in cotton candy caoutchouc
inviting minions of fraternity to dorm room festivals
with topless twenty year old sorority girls
blowjobbing like appletinis at Happy Hour
before ten cent taco night at Del Taco
mixed with body shots and jungle juice
making for guysers of cheese and meat come 2 a.m.
laughing and puking magnums of Chilitos across car hoods
exchanging fake numbers with Victoria’s Secret girls
the words PINK screenprinted on their Barbie Doll asses
each dreaming of Centerfold or Cosmo divinity
or another catatonic Hollywood starlet hopping off Holy Slow Train
Bitters rolled in sweet clove sticks in ‘tween their lips
legs freshly shaved for modeling career derailment
left popping ludes, pinkies, downers, amphetamines or crosses
rising up in their grey ash-haired morning bedheads
preching along the tops of their barrio mounts
as if clashing gongs atop alabaster rock in Tibet
and they sing their tambourine tributes to Janis and Oprah
all Queens of L.A. or at least so the barbituates tell it
no one dreams of making it with a cankled waitress
serving Moons Over my Hammy at Denny’s
and drowning patrons in burnt coffee grinds and flavored creamer
these young cosmos-phistos dreaming instead of Mamis and Geishas
thumb-thumping toffee cans in lieu of drums
opening windows of fresh air from spiritual whorehouses
meeting olive skinned hispanic chicas dancing Duranguenese
throttling shots of Patron and Cuervo in short-shorts and cowboy boots
doing the Running Man, Chicken, Bus Driver and Sprinkler
to sounds of Soul Train and Solid Gold, barking whoop! whoop!
with broken rhythms of Snoop Dogg and Tu Pac spitting off ammo
rolling on blunts and sipping pisswater 40’s
for the homies in cell block six strung by bedsheets
sifting in ectoplasmic forms in from Fraternity Row doorways
of guys who race Accords and Civics into thin desert air
against apparitions of Route 666 into waffling night air
scraping fenders from hounds teeth of starlite
to have their last breath snaggled between the face of a god and an elm
young men dream of running homerun bases in Fulton County
circling cosmic aureola of red clay tit
starving with flickering devil tongues made of money
listening to baseball cracking into wafts of viral Meyer Lemon tree
where the smell of worn leather calls the plowboys in
where they supplant themselves with tight nylon pants
and smack one another’s homogenous ass cheeks
grabbing them like pasty snowglobes and shaking them out loud
marching like uniform saints to the organ groans
into payday vagina dug out of red, white and blue bleacher
to the Jones Boys hitting homeruns in the World Series
as the Monkeys of Summer chasing Hammerin’ Hank
of juicing stitched baseballs into top deck floodlights
rubbin’ off to grandstand opera and pokin’ ballboys
for an autograph, backseat hummer and a full size poster
carrying sunburning girls and their red striped shadows
along muscular piped arm ladders to heaven and limp penasia
living unbridled across tubs of unconscious bubbles was still a verb then
Moloch! the love affair with phallus and the American Bunghole!
doctors throwing pills at purpling lips
stuffing pig faces with wooden crucifix and day old apples
in a hospital of orderlies stealing underwear
surviving toileted epilepsy and cancer at chapel alter
with a hundred and ten pound supermodel’s cancerous ecydsis out of skin
standing on an Eternal street corner with clots of hair
waving goodbye to a god chained around her neck
her legs toggling for one last step toward wedding vow
before arresting the ghost who stole her body
blinking her eye lids to a lasting starry dynamo
we were burying a corpse unwound of its twine of soul
under grey cups of steeping teabag cloud
an ungrateful God hanging his head opening his dutiful arms
and singing Bringing in the Sheaves on a Saturday morning
identifying caramel melts of Shakti
in muddy amber bleeding from her wrists
casting down herself onto a cross for family name
and lying in cocentric circles of wedding band
with the price tag still neatly stapled inside
young men rarely dream of burying, yet they do
from parents to wives to habitualistic regrets
faces stuck on Ally McBeal’s dancing babydoll
shoveling out broken bits of plastic
from wedding cake tops, unabled autistic relationships,
cornfields of exterrestrial crop circles, or old fucking scars
they dream along paunchy clouds smoking skunk herb
on occasion some finer hybrid from Canada
chasing Tinner’s Rabbits to cauldron of moors
Devil’s hounds in full cry across Hayne Down
through windowed filters of sheer curtains
like see through nipples of a black country night
or gigantic chocolate kisses in whorehouse teddy
eating, pissing, gorging more, fucking less, stabbing wet noodles
as if beery penises stuffing armaments of flacid helmets in self defense
making air balloon babies out of busted condoms
washing out herds of gushing ovulate to floor or toilet
like cattle to cervical packing plant
aborted with social ease of canned explosion
with little interference from mother or God herself
Christians waving their paper arms with highlghted Bibles
like monkeys clanging disgusting tambourines
V. the Understanding
of the Wanderjahr
dreaming out loud was for graduating succubi
rose tattooed B-girls in scarlet letterman jackets
Snoopys pushing lawnmowers on pubic yards
and the body delicious was a nauseating trend
money becoming tasteless on tongues of credit cards
a notion that it is easier to get in college than making azimuth
Wanderjahrs with waistcoat and stenz waltzing through universe
along cosmic hippie trails to Freak Street in Kathmandu
just another gash strung out with a rainbow of spoons
another Fritz or Froehline with scratchy nails and selective memories
tossing ringworms of hipcat words into speech
staring down the iconic blouse of Americana with her hideaway bra
one too many batteries to the imperial tongue
paved in political gold streets or conventional wisdom puss,
lobbyists’ groping under the table pyramid schemes,
or Fannie Mae digging poor black grandmothers from under porches
dreaming of woven American apple pies and white picket fences
mind dulling to inevitability of becoming Swaggies
hiding behind gyrating hips of religious politics
back when stringing up negroes was still a gas
to watch them erect and self-shat like run over earthworms
feelthy old pervs sitting on rusty summer swings
in flannel mothballs and popsicles in the basement
so the muscly armed paperboy would come see
drinking more at thoughts of crooning repentence
owing myself in grapeshots of liquid apology
but fuck if i was going to admit it
purging up succubant childhood memories
specters of nihilistic whorehouses and adulterated philandering,
cocaine and sticky dollar bills, riding trains of bed rails,
biting metal iron across brittle bone shoulder,
floating, swollen eyed bulbs of dead Pekingnese,
probing gropes of older men,
ninjas in parking garages and Dharma Bums,
libertine living for lack of common sense
hands scraping nicotine off yellowing troughs of front windshields,
diffracting eight tracks of Alabama’s Roll On,
cauterizing fish sticks steeping in pickle juice,
stealing cable and its fracturing moans of porn,
black & white midnight Kung Fu
hours creeping like rust along that bastard minute hand
we who were sleeping on pleather fold down beds
in backs of bubble windowed vans
a mindstruck volta of the eighties
praying out loud to pearly exploding stars
into a black ear of deaf internal brittle
an eternal cracker sacrament of cigarette butt sky
pleading on our best skinned up kiddo knees
that our God would come syringe head first
pricking purple capped hoola-holes into our arms
to relieve burning hunger from belly of Batie-Bummell bear
quenching drowning fire with gasoline vein
where Southside Teenagers dream of DMV Drive
vivacious bombshells spread eagle on Jaguars
i caught in a carcrash of rusting skin of a ‘71 Dead Sled
skimming across treetops of spiritual servitude
and across jiggling fat rolls of obese America
from frisbee waffles and lobes of What-a-Burger
in search of a well lubed freedom
promised in a letter from Uncle Jefferson
his good old boy network closing in
on two hundred plus years of anarchy
minus satanic wigs and powdery faces
rerecording that Declaration of Codependence
shackling those pages of metaphors, now run
wet ink and disappearing agendas
then again they knew that when they wrote it
their scape goats becoming elected officials
picking pockets of the Withouts and the Old
slithering behind podium bushes
in underbellies of striped wool suits
smoking Habanas with interns on my dime
for vicarium, i stretch my lungs
yowling back at my Republican neighbor
like some drooling Hangman
his Elephants rolling hashish with freshly minted deuces
decapitating his lifestyle with hands full of ego
my Metallica and Red Hot Chilli Peppers
interrupting his sonatas of Beethoven
Fucker never even knew Beethoven was deaf
makes for phenomenal drinking music though
this is the last dream of a jaded jack-off lover
as the ladies part ways with their woven flowers
their denim petals releasing into pink orgasmic moans
like the forgiving liquidity of whorehouse apologies
or baby seals suckling oil out of ocean’s teet
their midnight silk dresses of tar pulled
over shoulders of a raped and bruised old bitch
that cosmic whorehouse pirhouetting
of a dry, small titted oracle
VI. Watching Flies Falling Out
of Corporate Window Sills
this, this is what we dream of
WE
stolen by those succubant years
molesting in hole-in-wall bars with neon smiles
watching wedding gowns meet
fear of commitments in lowlit pubs
spinning wheels for drink specials
smoking camels and ordering diet sodas
dying cannot be ugliness so we rented ourselves more time
chameleon hair colors, adjusting tummy lines,
running nowhere on treadmills, in tight shorts,
mascara and lip gloss and lacy black thong
Death need not see the face it collects
in Pagan secrets we go into hollow night
hands wrenching with grocery bag bibles
threads of memories slowly unwound
praying unto melting candles of broken faith
lopping off at the wick of exchange of soul
young men dreaming out loud in propietous cause
self addiction becoming soothing philanthropy
taking off our shoes so not to be tread, knowing
the naked eye doesn’t even know we exist
dreaming of becoming banks for the wealthy,
trollips in green dresses, expanding thresholds
of mortgage rates,
assuming robes of deity,
driving elderly women mad with ideas of suicide,
their youthful flower now ashy grey
to be dry fucked wide open by raping commerce
with little bald men with high blood pressure,
sucking teet of secretary and flavor-of-the-months,
arranging board meetings in Cancun,
before swan diving from a fourteenth floor balcony
unemotional about empty bonds and ponzie scheme
young men dream of donning suits of fine wool
smoking Arturo Fuentes,
with latina concubines and yachts,
sailing to edges of Dry Tortugas
writing books of extrodinary irreverence,
raising pedestals to special interest deities,
fund raising reach-arounds and wine benefits,
travelling to far off islands and buying them
for love of barbie doll from college dorms,
while she torments her offspring into depression
so that she can fall into bottles of vicatin,
when Age paints an uglier canvas,
bitching about it to the ears of listening pool boy
she has effortlessly spread her legs for in the cabana
when dollar bills have curdled her gash of a face
then blaming cheating husband for Lack of Attention
or black dress antennae wearing interns
it was only one menage e trois for him
model Mercedes icy smooth vespertine with xenon headlamps
auto-fuck-me sunrooves, power windowed
fencing out the bildge rats with newpaper and water bottles
begging for wrinkled dollars cleaning windows
just outside a Help Wanted window
Moloch! Moloch! the bottle is full with the Demon!
they who are too rusty to dream or curve lips toward smile
before the mortgage was stolen from under them,
before their wife ran off with the pool boy,
and just before they decide
to find that fourteenth story window
to make dressing on that boulevard of stars
from up there anyone can leave an imprint
cut! the pilots wave or am i just paranoid?
these young-man dreams of walking along open road
letting strain of planter’s foot and ache of back
whimpering into curtains of a falling sunset
until i reached that golden destination of western coast
through Las Vegas funhouses and pasty-tittied strip clubs,
wedding chapels of instantaneous nuptials or divorcees,
bull riding with reminding signs in wooden screma
SCRAPE SHIT OFF BOOTS,
mechanical bulls tossing tourista cowboys
with their seersucker gouchos and woven deck shoes,
i dream of drinking in New York, New York with hourglasses of frozenia
the velvet night street to the Venetian Hotel
before my buzz dims to all-night rave clubs,
Vegas is always looking like a lake of fireflies with faces punched in it
humming pwangs of oasis over desert water of Mojave
just corporate flecks of a night air incognito
until i would finally walk out onto Los Angeles freeways
in the gasoline smoky curves of a 405 bitch
her cracked face and birthing girded hips tagged in hosital mile markers
her hispanic and gringo chipped chin of intolerance
lines blurring from Bloods and Crypts in Industry
Moloch! cry Moloch! the sin is not in the trigger!
powerlines like cable spiderwebs hanging out
between sticky floored laundrymats and crackhouses
catching flies with their drip of honey you dig
concert posters of Che like industrial wallpaper
or rising up armbands on Nazi mokeys on telephone poles
and playground junkies with election reminders
young men dream of life far away from pirhouetting Statue of Liberty
prancing pearly whites around circles of the too poor; too homeless
rusting tin cans bobbing in a harbor of too wretched refuse
rewritten by Pens of the Rich in green ink
is the City of Angels breaking off into Pacific hell?
with her children running with tar seeped feet
along ancient crumbles of San Andreas seashells
cry for children that do not know how to swim!
while sharks circle in their plexi-glass tanks at the aquarium
around and around and infinitely starving around
around and fucking doll-eyed around
where Presidio meets a tank of Monterrey ocean enclave
it rocky jutted teeth sweating for blubbering 5th grader
dizzy and rolled eyed seeds from whale fat overdose
banging their tiny fists onto glassy wall drums in search of Megladon
those children dreaming of yipping yipping dolphins
raising Atlantis in their glossy grey submarines
and eeking out leagues of decaying bottom-floor mystery
drawn in by orange hats of bonfire and uboat under Japanese plume,
sand dunes of tireless drum circles of hippie beach bums,
and gagging on cheaply rolled blunts
sweet Moloch for the gypsy! rye Moloch for the pain!
every man is a purging bone bottle and spiny whistle
emptying vessels into a gullet of insatiable time
to use and be used in moments of proportional discardment
like carbon dated prophylactics through time
stuffed in wild Barracuda backseats, in Coca-Cola cans,
warm apple pies or oily knuckled palms,
drifting aimless on white lipped seas
glorifying whichever god allows sanctity
before falling spent-empty to Davey’s sweetest drown
downward into oblivion of forever Undertow
to bottomless floors of wasted carcass before magical wisks of time
panging in hollow uboats and reef halved oil tankers
fingersnaps gnawed on by starving sea vermin
tentacled and barnacled ottomans of bony scrap
only to rise again like a ghostly phoenix from watery ashes
into hands of judgmental but forgetting gods
we’ve so aptly lept like and easily ignored
VII. Walking Mormons
to the Mountain of Buddha
young droning men dream after monastic Death
of dying in a flowery bonneted hole
headstones perched in their stony pillows
along green fields beside Buddha and his earthen blanket
woven and stitched with worm heads
and decaying hairlines of forgotten brows
until dreaming is no longer a dream awakened from
restless bones twisting in lacy caskets
waiting for tunnels of propagandic lights
waiting for hands of promising gods
waiting for grains of an hourglass to sift through forests of bones
ghosts of native indians running with white ponies
across separating ends of untied golden plains
with White Buffalo and Black Elk to lead them
their hallowed bones clanking on horseback
all skin-stitched to the grass seeds
We will see them from tops of skyscraping teepees
knowing they resound true and straight as arrows
as last fragments of a medicine man faith
while the Whites are sweeping them into dust bowls
along their Trail of Tears through orange and gold
pretending to exist in canyons where they were hung
with echoes of their screams through morning
like pelts of a a used rainstorm
and the Government is turning away
Mormons are still crusading across open range snow
halting wagon at God’s feet somewhere in Utah
praying for their Jeezus and sanity of Joseph Smith
looking up cloudy skirts into a a soft heaven
sipping on grape juice at Sacrament with crackermeal eyes
a congregation warming chestnuts of commonality
wearing badges of Adultery and plurality
in harkems of don’t ask-don’t tell
walking up to heaven in glints of white stone
like chards of unfound Spear of Longinus or not
splintered into fifty states of grain silos and Temple
while ghosts of Davey still fight for Alamo
for Santa Anna is a reciprocating wetback well costed
for love of The Church and busted rosary
these are no longer dreams of young men
dreaming of a phallic natured skyscrapers
morphing landscapes into concrete bedlams
the rest are just daytrippers picking at scabs
a devoted wink in an enormous eye over millenia
where the Mind Volta is recharging inanimate
dreaming is eternally simpler in childrens heads
ideas of bouncing balloons and gushing pinatas
bursting right out in rushes of maroon below
when grasping notions of grass and color expounded
wretching subject from misunderstanding
like physicians of a mind diseased coloring book
shading in untidy edges with hue
gliding unsteady scalpel heads into infected bursts bags of sodomy
when words were moon spelling over spoken tide
cramping vocal chords uttering mystic lingo
through flittering hands of a godly guitarista
young men dreaming of new words to complain with
under weight of insatiable whining
as if a walking paraplegic pushing a wheelchair
over feet of the walking handicapped
them walking barefoot through universal divides
treading sole when silence would not do
mumbling from quivering lips uncommanded
in teetering rickshaws toward quim-Nirvana
when wiser throats keep their mouths shut
now with sealing grolsch minds these men twitching
singeing stubborn wings beneath lampshade
where no one hears them cry
there was a time when the cosmos mattered
and cocks didn’t roll out of jagged zippered solar systems
in wet presoaked headed swollen tongues
we were tuliped and daisy-chained at airports
in the rich colors of 70’s Poppychild
when you could sweat out sermons of crumbled jazz
in train whistles of horns or just blown on tits
through smoky bars of last call booze
from lengths of caramel colored atrophy,
veining cigarettes in yellow rigamortis,
squeezed artery exhaling from wheeze-bags of lung
a dream of a zipper was Christ on denim crosses,
hung with empty dollared pockets
and hand fulls of qualudes,
no rent or bail for resting Gargantuines
beneath oil stained and dull shined pompadour helmets,
droving circles of two dollar wet beer stain,
and pockets of useless ATM receipts
were like biblical papers not easily translated
when dreaming eyes were cut wide open into view,
like wrists of white newspapered lawns
sentenced to minutes of black letters
milky galaxies of half-lit words streaming into one Constant
black holes of hormonal dharmic heads
chanting Gaudeamus omnes or Vandana Ti-sarana
language as discernable as star drizzle
and too few actions that correctly correspond
letters mentioning near-dead negro men
and with rattlling pang of teeth
flung across patrol car hood,
crying MLK while spitting red upward into shiny tin eyed batons,
striking match of a city of lost angels
young men dreaming of miles of burning asphalt
in red flickering tongues from hell
as history gets cut this way with dull witted buck knife
begnning in pork gouged into wet nigger underbelly
like a spoon into the belly button of a yowling Buddha
ending in an open hand
trying to catch its own water
VIII. Summa cum Laude
from a Donut Shop
starry young men dream of not aging
throwing horseshoes into the wide hipped stars
to watch them fall right out of night
graduating crib to immaculate grave
staring dolly eyed from its hollow sockets
like empty egg crates of university
unzipping its gritty faced fly
releasing cum filled emotional twinkies loose
from pale pastries of college funneled dorm
forms of sunbathed countertop barbies
running circles like plastic ponies
around bottles and boys at bar table tracks
their stamping tees in colors of rebellion or Benetton
young minds of men are always dreaming of sports
their seventy homeruns and hat tricks
a brothel of white pants circling bases
sticky bar room floors with flat screens
shouting through paper thin plaster walls
in jingles of shadows pushing into doorways
as if a Mamasan was shooing them in
they dream of smoking Hookahs with Mu’assel
or Soex Shisha in tightly fitted parlors
like grey nicotine stained tshirts of mud patch
summa cum laude in middle eastern robe
chasing sanskrits of tatooes and cuffed anarchical Levi’s
along this escalating traffic from Wilshire to Beverly
clanging maps of the Stars like trash can lids
leading to Estates with empty hearted Homes
young men are dreaming of being on-the-road themselves
taking railcars to Emerald City or Vancouver coffee shops
smoking fags with Jack Kerouac and the boys
flirting with blondes and their sapphire eyelets
snuggling into wraps with Canadien angels
or ruining them onto islands from forgotten wars
where untrusting immigrants run from martial law
crying with slanted eyes and golden flesh
fondling inside bellies of colossal cedars
their naked bones in snowblind fur coats
this subconcious Elysium without barbaric venality
dreams of moon circlets and dazzling twitter light
where all men become truly brothers of Earth
in havens of winged contropasso and comedy
and hairless monks are shaving heads of abandoned knots
salvation by Rogaine autonomy
tweekers throwing abused childhoods
with all its reason and idiocy reared back
like red bricks into storeway awnings
ones they usually have sunken under
as street corner tse-tse headed fly needles
gorging fat face into delicious warm forearm
hiding in cocoons of garbage dumpster
holy rollers chaining themselves to leaning trees
in prayer and gasoline for salvation
or mercy of arbol and free agency
so their declined ghost can rise with steam of paper plant
and the stink of festering sulphur dioxide
or plume of a transit choking between 5th & Pine
chicken stands deep frying on streets downtown
in lopped off limbs of bawk-bawking hot wings
like convertible cadillacs of carcass
stoked beside leather shops and handcuffs
Queene Anne dressed as an invariable hill
steeply climbing like legs moonward
an assertive hand up into black skirt of evening
spinning in dizzying revolution of the Space Needle
the city with concrete umbrella in twirl
crying Moloch! Moloch! and only beer to taste!
dopey-eyed soldiers pricked in tin badges
with doughnut licked mouths and powdered noses
chocolate smirks and flack jacket barreled chests
sqwalking radios abandoned for pastry curls
while they sit and silently sexually reference
holy grails of single mothers on lunch hour
their swollen breasts of souring cream
jilting behind checkerboard waitress unis
while catching waft of menstruating pussy
this teenage succubus with apple breasts
her redvine lips pouting around imaginary cocks
their smeared lipstick in stained rings
until she bites smilingly down
laughing
IX. Sage Homme
there was a time when the cosmos mattered
bubble gummed condom shops
and Buddhist hippie stores
exhaling their patchouli
when a hippy-hippy-shake lip glossed out loud
like pop-up carnival girls for stuffed prizes
this was young men dreaming of sex and godliness
tweekers in orange-skinned shorts, greasy fingers,
burger babes in roller skates, tattooed bar wenches
barbie is a bitch that killed natural woman
her brunette hair chasing in streaks of platinum
sun kissed stripes of southern cali bleach
hourglassed beneath bulimic sizes and 38D uplifts
choking on burn of throat weed
razzing scorched in that silicone chest
barbie was that dream within masturbating heads
when self-love was religious slippery and unconscious
as if gods created exploding universes from pale nebula
wherever prosthetic bars were tracks of frozen concoction
blowing their blue collared whistling lips
foreheads cringing in wrinkles of sick balloons
young men were dreaming of Shakyamuni and breasts
under rooms swooning in Nag Champa cloud bursts
reruns of Sesame Street word for the day: Jivatma
Virgins still trimming their wicks for a Man in Black
creamy doe eyes propped outside Starbucks chapels
sipping on Darjeeling and half-n-half
or double shot espresso lattes
like priests waiting outside panes of coffee confessional
there was awe in spiritual opportunity
godliness was persona in righteous pimp suits
and saints wore hand-me-down alligator shoes
and whores were stealing from themselves
with pink heels and generic sucking lips
tucked into black-n-white nun tunic
browning roots threading up
through nappy burlap bags of blonde scalp
donning heads of yester-women reincarnate
fucking like they just broke up with Narcissus
when sophisto-cated rioting was breaking out
lobbyists were being swatted away
their plastic kamakazi one-sided hum and venerability,
their crayonic posters, inked fingernails and bought agendas,
masquerading in politcial dissertation with lopped heads
preaching planet awareness with god-fish in pocket
scraping bark from scabbing trees for lattes
their stealing hands through coffee bean grind
in cages of green crocodile baristas
foaming non-whip low fat cappuccinos
into coffee needle to atrophied umbilical
breeding retarded jittering bastards
with beastie chains and folded pages of Bukowski
pronouncing the Apocalypse in incomplete sentences
death by cosmic collision in the year of 2012
this is how young men got through those succubus years
those hazing twenties dubbed out
in blurry spectacle or warbled soundscape
blowing backsides of drunken skulls into dark alleyways
or into stanky motel room sinks for morning maid
sanity becoming a breakthrough to advanced trauma
like the puppet with a hand up its arse
smiling until the radical transformation
or uncomfortable flatulence of having neither
trading illegal junk for caffeinated ones
riding transit into watery lanterns of night
Seattle burning in a lake of fireflies amongst starving volcanoes
seeping asphalt and neon snakes from concrete trees
protecting Emeralds with ghosts of Bruce Lee and Wyatt Earp
even before the Rooster last crowed
self inflicted by an overdosing spoon
naming gods before bleeding the freaks
always raining for the dead, and they’re always dying
Cobain sucking off frustrated wrong ends
of a phallic barreled shotgun
his cancerous eyes staring out wet mattes
of a mop of fresh red and blonde
this was opportunity dreaming of rubbing itself
dreaming of matchsticks of ovulating snatch
stroked with wet tips of zealous cock
stoking coal of an ember loving itself
winding up ashes in boxes in a diluted eternity of dirt
no judge is a jury in alleyways
all are amputated newborns in trashcans
peddling with dime bags of crank and whale blubber for soap
if it smokes all the same or not in the end
a Jesuit Pelican bleeding from its eyes
peckering at its waist for its younglings
who never learn to pecker for themselves
breaking into paper machines
watching ink becoming battered wives
and jewish children praying for the Irish
chubby Sunday papers with coupon fingertips
its forehead a headline Granny Blows out Brains
just to survive for foreclosure
and cell phonic gunslingers twirling
crusted hands to digital sidearm and ringtone
calling to a suicidal America
that is not calling back
X. For God and Ulster
in the Zabruder Cosmos
young men are sleeping on elevated trains
in dull commuter eyes watching smoking metal caskets
driving by in narcotic exhaust fumes
canoodling lover bumpers six inches apart
honking internal bugles of Reveille at stop lights
on thin strings of untying highway
of a black corset on narrowing waists
of a dashed angel into a lovers night
desperately segragating demons of the fleash
from angels of the soul For God and Ulster
from Irish history including Catholics
White Supremacy still existing in monkey skulls
rowing ships in Amistads of broken Africans
colored dogs between gouged whipping post
and humility of oppresive collar
gouting proudly for paycheck and application
too freshly uneducated to give up seats
still boarding fake railroads to Underground Freedom
punching bus passes with food stamps
unceasing centrifugal Cadi rims with baby’s milk money
Fatherhood never realised on malotto faces
as if autistic children from the Inside Out
young men too busy dreaming of servitude to thumping gods
in distorted fragments of Hip-Hop radio dial
perching boom box on bus seats like melodic toddlers
being born average making themselves common
crotches making into waistlines with boxers labels
carrying pride in hand fulls of pull up denim
these young men do not dream of being Fathers
standing posthemous in symbiotic dole lines
listening to echoing gun chambers
when babies are too hungry to smile
and sleeping at the OK Compton Corral
crawling in fecal engorged diapers
along matress-less bottoms of toyless cribs
there is Cosmos in babies eyes
a nebula in full bloom of the human star brittle
swirling solar systems of imagination
microcosming behind orbs of human doll
predecessing onesies and fleece rompers
crying into a thick plastic air of crack
hoarse in a toddler funnel of nowhere
wide eyed and mouths gaping in thunderstruck stare
the God i know doesn’t suffer the babe
during her old time gospel hour on late night AM
eventually all young men are dreaming of identifying
a third shooter from proverbial grassy knolls
hidden in plain sight on Zabruder film
headless corpses copulating American throats
silently raping inarticulating elementary innocence in Teletubby TV
lint-filling pockets pulled gnarled and half bitten
like dingo ears on New Zealand prairies
of Us left abandoned or have abandoned Ourselves
this inner space cosmos in all its temporal concavity
of spinning hypocritcial wheels alongside
pollocks of orange striped safety barrels
where county prisoners are picking at manhole scabs
and breaking up ancient alignment of asphalt ditches
them young men use to dream of the Fall of America
Naked Lunches and holy Beat Commiseration
reading browning pages of American chapbooks
Ghost Dancing with headless feathers,
nylons on foreheads, ectoplasmic Hemingway,
creating Avatars for disjointing social pages,
deleting at will paper trailing friendships with guilt
this was before the ineluctable self came
in narcissistic rotunds of midsection of Without
scuttling along streets by yowling fish markets
where tattooed dolls throwing bohemian salmon and cod
wearing slap of rubber apron in midnight fantasy
and rolled-eyed herrin wrapping themselves in paper pinatas
like smelly scaly geisha in yesterdays print
opening lotus blossomed guts for debit swipe
watching as tourists laugh in yellow facade of people parade
like Carnis heckling in conjecture of weight
stuffed bear offertory for obesity misnomered
Men Without Countrys in convertibles and white hats de rigueur
mayorically waving to sidewalks of dead eye votes
cursory circling of Lee Harvey or grassy knoll
unfaltering selector levels aiming down range
with God and Ulster subterfuging inside delusional heads
and starving shells still loaded inside the penetralia of the soul
XI. the Funeral Pyre of
the Unforgiven
young men once dreaming of making cosmos matter
applying social tourniquets to Pork Barrel artery
and noose to impropering elected vagabond
with multi-mansion and hydroxy wives
made into bags of indescretion or overdose
like human syntax quivering their admissions
the little china men with bails of hay
peddling rickshaws for jade eyed rider
and two coins for the Holy Holy Riverman
men on Lincoln’s nose wandering North by Northwest
eventual revenants of Unforgiven lost in pyre
self risen marching for 39 Steps into Haven
beneath sad sunbeams with severed sun tangled arms
reaching into explosions of shattering rooms
sunsplotched hand grenades with pulled pins
opening windows for old man stench
and exhaling cigarette smoke before sacred interuption
loud veerts of asses mid-flatulation
silently cropdusting golden doorways
shopkeepers waving against infestation of invisible fies
a semi shirsheing sprays of must into highway air
waving back to Yosemite Sam
wagging with pistols on ears of mudflaps
like a metallic hound with pistolera ticks and not enough bullet
eyes screaming blind in sunlight ricochet into hollow orbs of Forget
and mouth contorting in bites of cheese sandwich
jaws ringing like starving church bells
after evenings of Jaigermeister shots
a smell of jasmine and coffee walking out loud
along sidewalks masking in fading garden
with daffodil faces in closing Shakespeare audience
singing hymns of metric rhyme
fingers of sunflowers stretching themselves
out into yellow circular rings
like fat girls twirling in hoola-hoops
their chubby green stalky legs under them
having realised that dreaming is of tomorrow anyway
this young man with hang nail memory
with nauseating stomach churning, turning,
leaning into a rusty dumpster bucket bone
pigeons peckering through bits of chowder
this young men is dreaming of living out loud
in unchaste forearms of Mother America
her virginity lost in backseat theaters
where the sounds out of her box are muffling
into car windows of no one listening
we who are walking in concrete easement with dead things
accepting how dead cats looks like home
with the lights always off
bloating with wandering eyes toward sky
and no one there to help them through Eternal Homework
just scraping shit from a litterbox
reminding me of road kills in Floridian aquaducts
with smiling gators and their furry teeth
sloshing into baptismal dinner water
miles from Everglade glass of briny water
where the Egret befriends Death in a delta
adjusting truths of ever crooked lazy eyes
praying that cemetary grass is freshly mowed
for minuettes of marching souls of this Comic Cosmos
praying for drum roll of a legion of drummer boys
leading us quietly into that cerulean morning Reveille
them readying for the smop of lumpy heads plopped off
from their conscience hinges onto red-ripe funeral pyre
or into junk heaps of scrap-splooge stem cell
young men most agreeably do not dream of burial
of cremating, hole swallowing, running over or throwing up
by a wheezing two ton Belvidere with no insurance
like scraping bulldozer plowing up mass grave
they don’t dream of identifying bodies familiar
waiting for stasis to pop of curling window shade
to raise their immovable eyelids back to life
of dithery morgue rooms with soulless Coroners
imbibing smoking in spite of fourteen hour shifts
purchasing real estate for plot and hole and posterity
fluffing concrete pillows with wreaths of plastic lilac
considering that hollow eyes will no longer be needed
there is no use for eyes in Hell anymore than a match
supposing Lucifer a good southern hostess
sweet tea and burnt cornbread for All
XII. the Holy Slow Train
the cosmos was greying to this young man
hope was a lover walking out yet again
leaving a warm mess of adulterating pajama
and me cleaning remains of a sticky, wet spot
this young man was dreaming of anything new
shortening bowling lanes, swimming in snake beds,
running miles away with attenuating faith,
with black lab, languid old jeep and life string rose-red untwining
bunk- rooming with child molestors and imminent porn stars
sweeping up crumples of Venus de Milo love letters
from married ex-girlfriends writing their dreams awake
their ink striking edge of paper in sour cyclolithic matchstick
conveniently detained behind MySpace and four thousand miles
weeping in IMs of unfaithful husbandry
yammering in stories of aching wine bottle and marooned clit
palpitating in sleepless inexcitable marital sheets
condemning and unsatisfied with wraiths of wedding vow
never once dreaming of an end to this cosmos
deacons still passing plates for an offering delayed
buck knifing penises into roadside brush
ringing doorbells with holy holy holiday shotguns
nebbish housewives reflecting in pools of neighbors coagulation
for God, ulster, country, wine or barbituate
consummating the phallic wrongs
with banshee vaginal rights of this our Americana
seemingly exhausting all succubant failures first
along spaghetti rails of a moonlit Holy Slow Train
young men are now dreaming in insular eyes
moving on to neighbors wife or daughter
having psychodelic menage a trois with Ezra
contorting declarations of Americana and tears,
seizing wrists of Hallelujah beaten children
only to prostrate Glory Glory vestal Mary
giving birth to ruination and avant gard reincarnate
miles of juxtaposing details in luminous wanderlust
crackling bails of hay in picketed lofts
setting midnight ablaze with red haired schoolteachers
applying ointments to itch of crotch
until death do they part the preacher says
and so it comes quicker beneath stealing hands
burying brides in trunks of watery easements
and grooms in gardens with black soil tux
no one dreaming of L O V E anymore
etching and plinking into marble headrests
fallacio of false adulations of faithful husbands
looking down from necks of cornflower tie
into surviving orbs of Wife
complaining neglected in Armani Reds zoots
stuffing into six foot boxes with jizzing hooker pics
and two more coins for the Riverman there
Death is a blazing sow that is always hungry
repelling notions of jacklighting sickles
probing into boarish night of infinite bedazzle
until maggots are chitter-chattering in windows of the skull
this ending of the customary cosmos stream
a rusting can of flesh hides left jerking in cresting sun
fusing into bags of weed and ink pen pipes
high as a googling baby face coping with reality
into the soft Haven of beer goggled satin
a reflective paradigm of self-anecdote
where black laced thighs ride high on poker tables
in whispering conversations of mispronounced sigh
stuffing twenty dollar bills by the handful
damnable eyes blinking into smoky scintilla of disco ball
turning glints to fuck-dreaming of naked shadows
of dancing banshees into midight candle flame
mewling at 3 a.m. THfUMP of lover
breaking silhouettes as if moon-sliced falling out of bed
disappearing dybbuks into black doorways
shades of blank mama-night corduroys
tip-toeing one night stands clambering out windows
as if the madden dead may rise up alluded
fumbling for bus passes and skid marked whities
asses squelching open asphyxiation of morning
down marginal libretto of a daybreak sidewalk
expulsing individual embryos for life gravida
watching from outside pitious eyes of a sage homme
palms wrist up into heavenly uterus
young men are dreaming of cheating the undetaker
of knocking back years with prescription pills
fighting inevitable urge to spiritually Translate
riding Harleys in Heaven with tube topped babes
craven proletariat rotting on geriatric herbarium
aghast of becoming smelly truckers with smokestack eyebrows
nubbing toothless gums into truckstop victuals
thumbing pages of nudie mags with steering wheel hands
keeping metal boxes between forever white lines
praying to Almighty God on a CB microphone
or dialing suicide hotlines for free lunches or Chic-fi-la coupons
listening to Rush Limbaugh on all-day radio
modern citizenry are not dreaming of turning lathes
of blowing glass or bending bumper steel and license plates
attending mass or climbing out of bottles divine
hoarding at astronomical knees like children of immeasurable machinery
or deified panties of young girls in that same Waffle House
dabauching geezers are dreaming of winking at the paperboy
in terry cloth bathrobe and slow-melting popsicles
racing sprinklers to the edge of lawn dilletante
and the lewd Catholic priest seranading across the street
until sequestered in dentured grins and formaldehyde
as wormfood incommunicado beside lumps of pedophiles
Boy Scoutmasters and nymphomaniacal hounds of wail
with plicated hands in chocolate laiden pocket
in adulterated hopes of children in flaming night gowns
sitting on toilets so long for a shat their feet fall to sleep
apparitions of choirs of naked boys by lakes of fire
quenching perverted tongues in hells of brimstone Oasis
those same parasitical bastards of children
now old men laying beside battered wives
or creeping along to their blank hole
joints howling from lifeless tombs in hospital beds
pissing red into hand cans and on nurse legs
burying themselves with styrofoam flowers
and dead flies on an infinite window sill
strangely complaining about death from warbling mouths
of animals who have had to just live
XIII. Through Television Eyes
into Cosmic Fade
no longer bleeding from slit wrists of human Gomorrah
no longer dreaming of Atlantis and a waitress ass
like convicted cowards behind retinal bars
dreaming is becoming sodomy of the duped
mangled tubes of empty K-Y on motel nightstands
dreaming is becoming stolen Bibles of Gideons or New World Order
in fetal curled asylums of the same hotel rooms
nicotine tingeing of cigarette butts on tubskirts
and crayons of makeup for failing marriages
no one fucks Lady Scaramouche anymore
watching bareback canoness being buried beside hookers
both spread eagle on parallel armed crosses
virgins buried abreast cadavers of strippers
refracted in colossal prismatica left immaterial
like watching fragments of pay-per-view
in sodded humdrum under cosmic spotlight of stars
watching purgatoried hitchikers under raven wing of night time
pecking buxom worm from fast food trays
incubated heat lamp dynamo winking one eye down
the brainsick madman behind the counter
diffusing twisted ends of a pencil thin mustache
in a perma-grin love affair with teeny-bopper cashiers
watching thunderous guitars blur into talismanic wands of MTV
voodooistic reverbs and shamn riffs on Headbangers Ball
Cable God and his minions of puppeteering on strings
sublimating from frizzy faces of four feet speakers
from one eyed shrews of blue-toothed CD players
in sermons of Saint Anger from a carpet pulpit
watching Air Jordans hotfooted and wagging tongues
legends climbing into constellations of market share
where planetariums pay homage to existence
their pudgy circles orbiting godliness
in rings of of cosmic diamonds and rave
watching pitchers hit homeruns cuz the chicks dig the long ball
and tearing out ACLs with plastic sporks
of having overdosed them to bone brittle
flipping a hundred channels of narcoleptic stare
every fifteen minutes of meaningful drama poorly interupted
by twelve dancing rabbits with toilet paper
laughter-loving children who once were irresistable forces
now mummifying into immovable objects
giving birth to billions of remote controls for vision sake
growing old with eyes like cantaloupes and no brain behind them
watching waves run like wet dogs along beaches
their salty tails wagging into pools of skin-breakers
their starving hound nostrils in clumping sand and Cheetos
beside venerable white-haired lady and her Universal Lie
in a metal detector for reposing retirement
this human hope of prolonging man’s irrevocable torment
engaging with autistic dimensia of lover-hood
proposing to prophesied wives in Japanese Shangri-la
looking up like wanting coy from a pond of austere knees
shooting heart up through phiz of broken glass
and left wheezing in rejection on her lap
watching facades slip into alterior conscience
traveling into caves of ancient beastial divination
scrolling pages of holistic medicine or retardation
with shaking fingers and pang of hallucinagenic hangover
waiting for someone to answer in a room of deaf
awaiting slip of blade from gospel torreador
staring back with autistic eyes and imbroglio
weeping at the solace of their passing
furrowing into rabbit holes after that skinny bitch
her shrooms and mescaline breath always unattainable
lolling in spent lover sheets in sweating withdrawal
finding comforts in alleyways with someone elses daughter
in illusionary prom dresses and skinned up knees
like plastic dolls atop a wedding cake
why is Barbie killing the American woman?
making her up in two story and pink Corvette
and sending her off to vowing church with Ken
XIV. the Succubus Years
truth is i dont remember roaring through my twenties
dreaming through those succubus years,
flying like gods crowning out of molotov fire
snorting like whores misguided in narcotic philanthropy
alcoholic bellydancing of ABC store variety
lightning in some bone bottle running wild
in mental masturbations of opposite polarity
where the hands just won’t leave me be
weed on Fridays morphing into bleached white portals
stolen Saturdays waking in noonday haze
behind spackling marble of bloodshot eyes
unable to rearrange truth out of clean white teeth chatter
getting pasted in Nirvana inside helmet sized Cuervo-ritas
drinking manna from fish bowls in festooning lips
cocks in prowling hand; nobbing dark circles of cunt
like one eyed battle-axes behind picket fences
rising in wet chin-welts like sexual Lazarus
after unlocking Esquiline Gate to an empty cross
watching friends plicking ends of choking out ciggies
into paper ash cans and calcinating spit cups
standing in jowls of biting cold just to feel conjointed
friendships are afterhour rainchecks in retail
condensation on a work whistle soon evaporated
closer than that suicidal witch’s womb
i was unthoughtfully extracted from,
head tearing her convicted entrails to a vermillion red
like predatory snakes molting out of colonic ecydsis
and like some mother’s when the bleeding’s done
slithered away into a deeper grass
her sister-loving self resting in cloudless atmospheres
like cherubs in striped pajamas self professing Auschwitz ashes
buildiing the kiln box one brick by hand
two by everyday abandoning
tormenting herself inside a new metal womb now
lost and not buried, sacrilegious and beheaded
in self-loathing and liquidity of giving up
a transcendental accident of drug induced abduction
hauled into a shallow outer space
where the fruit of Eden has been tasted
and left peeling in a human rind along her sofa
her curdling apartment still reaking
making window for firemen and a peeping Lucifer
with jittery television still tuned to cooking show
swigging cooking sherry into sunrising throats
there are no gua-rawn-tees for the dead
waking up clot eyed, numb-stiff and bone groggy
a sedated disfigurine in thick tufts of cotton fog
escaping hallways of cognitive hedonism
crying Moloch! Moloch! with rocking cradle
away from lion-headed iron rod fire poker
with large metallic teeth and small hands
with biting lips of baby faced diamonds in my head
always whining for something more
so in feeding them teenage skin from pouting shoulder
decidely casting shadows as long as lifetime
young men dreaming of hitchhiking across continents
penniless swagmanthology of being on the run
is more enlightening than running to somewhere
where the ticket stays unpunched
removing barricades of of left out ideals
in dreams of puking by light of train track
stuffing groves of rotten cucumbers
haunted insane by vinegar into nine year old gagging gullet
away from George Jones seeping like dirty tar fingers
through epidermia of creaking floorboards
climbing like fat headed babes into cribs
or into broken down jolopy of canned metal
resembling the rumble of abandoned racecar
or expended carcass of Phoenixian goddess
their red heads cracked; their rubbery legs unshaven
like sun chewed whores in a microcosmic junk yard
away from snakes from a creekbed hanging from green afro tree tops
away from combing tines picking out nappy heads
in shady haunches outside the woodline
as if Helter-Skeltering moths in a lampshade
or devotees of Bacchus anxiously waiting outside liquor store
humming beneath a vagrant eye of parking lot
coonhounds yowling two yards away from sunset
fading to black under pressed moon thumb
pencil lines trailing away from drawn houses
through chainlink and leafy faced boscage
smelling of stale carton cigarettes and Chaps
wanderlusting until chemical dependency diffused
or come jejune snore of finally passing out
away in early morning debouchment of sun regiment
shirshing of waking treetops in teenage hair mattes
fingernails tapping against pairs of clear skull windows
shining in a cycloptic eye over cum stained city life
and incalculable wet spots attenuating into crusty carpet
ring-wormed cup circles seeping into antique wood
fucking twang of endless George Jones hanging up
like smelly old man socks in bromidic bourbon air
i was dreaming of forgetting to remember those years
those juke-boxed drowning vinyl babies
with record player foreheads torn off
crawling with the Jimmy’s Kingsnakes onto tapestries
breathing in sows of inoculation
curling panties down writhing thighs into mewl
and giggling with moist spiccato of fingers
girls are cumming in palms on rooftops of pasty wizen men
above sifted exhaling of uncorked bar breath
parties in emerald backyards of beerbottle brush
sharing alleys of puking with crack whore skeletons
behind alabaster faces, blowing hard
these California-angeled Sunflowers fisting scrotum and dollar bills
wiping corners of drizzled mouths in collegiate kerchief
waving smiles to the White House cameras blooming
like lilies in hands of parading prom queens
piggy backing to nowhere in a used Cadillac
i was forgetting faces from bigotry riots
broken negroes hanging in neon portholes
somehow smiling in their beaten faces
like black mannequins in awnings
uneducated crackers with scraped off handguns
shooting out streetlights and aiming for God
hawtpink t-shirted college drop-outs hiding under pig tails and large breasts
like porn propaganda for bourgeois media
licking her lips and arching back for common Barbie-mania
forgetting smell of damp CS gas in misty morning fog
inhaling clarity of translation into perfect enunciation
forgetting us dogs of war let aloose and unkept
with wet flea bites of military chemistry
a lit fuse spidering along arms of dynamite
noses untapping and spouting under stomp of riot boots
ablutionary sheets of disengaged motorcycle rides
sucking in mephitic cannabis at 4:20 with friends
in a square park where no one mattered
framed in a fence of no one cared
letting loose bulging black liners into stretching echoes of rag and bone
we were barnamizing smoke into circus rings
jeering rodeo-clown police in academy gym shorts and Ray-Bans
we were bullying ourselves onto Chelsies like oxymoronic hobos
liberating burn holes into suburban history of sophisticates
their eli eli white lab coats tending flock
and we heard Ginzap crying Moloch! Moloch! in the night
shipping subordinate packaged minds anywhere outside American Pomerium
heads psychotropically mangled into thoughtless shoulder cans
along rickety railroads and interstates beneath oilskin of nighttime
her molasses hair dripped back against lace clouds
under pretenses of finding indians lost in hymns of Geronimo
this is how i was forgetting that angels existed
sitting my ass in branny paperback chapbooks
sniffing white powders of poetic effigy
inside leopard print pews where words were making themselves
sweet as virgin fruit from yearning schoogirl vine
masturbating in flashes of star-spangled white arse
by curtainless apartment window barefoot and broken versed
twiddling gardens of closed gated virgins
misshaping screams into climbing walls
flicking neon against brittle creaks of well-worn headboard
this was how this young man lost his dreaming
keeping that bitch of meretricious time at bay
wispy old books being alienated for white ones
emptying stirrup cups of frothy psychoses
through reverberations of beer head and monkey nuts
walking benumbed into blue-green slippers of the Pacific
cauterizing flat feet into blue clumps inside ancient socks
indiscretions like disfiguring howls from birth canal
weeping with homosexual boneflowers
wilting along unforgiving stems and lesions
forcing imagination into rabbit holes of exctasy and martini
keeping vantage lateral and unfixed
waking under red eyed mornings like hung over pandas unsmiling
glittered hair and familiarly sore asses
stumbling from unemployment lines into empty parking lots of bars
and writing alternative country lyrics until passing out
breathing arcane mountain air through millions of dead capillaries
instead of joining the White Arrow holocaust
or subjegating packs of rabid Buddhists
i was busy burying oil slicked bones under American agenda
plunging unfathomable bores into fidgeting underwater veins
burning carcass in pyres of bonewood
i was forcing childish eyes to see
when asians were being chased into hills of cedar trunk and hiding
when governments were dropping notices of ticking intervention
wide metallic smirks of absolution
through sweating palms and mudhut villages
subtle reminders of enlarged penis, pissing on islands to make continents
making blue eyed brunettes from slanted wombs
or dying from crabs of an unwashed sailor
bruised and naked on steel sheets
squinting eyes to rearrange an awkward truth into porch light
heads hanging on bony posts forgetting what alarm clocks wake them
orbital prisoners caged by self serving retinal bars
looking intelligent and bursting promises like congressmen at elections
foreheaded eyes barreling into a face of porcelain rejection
after moaning under toilets and reciting puke through the night
overhead a ghost of Nina Simone whispering smoky in one ear
from cosmic speakers of Big Box bathroom stall
with the smell of throw-up and feces
mouths blowing chunks like whistles into a circle of plastic rim
face framing from the inside; reminding me of egg soup
the smelling of noodles and sour mash whiskey
contorting with a pungent reaking of piss puddle
every Saturday was turning vast and familiar
unrelenting forgiveness in a chain of Catholic rosary
squawking of middle eastern taxi
with patchouli and cheap cologne
smelling of city bus diesel under cloud of two-day libation,
mowing lawns of literary sod,
leaving excrement as learning compost
wandering 4 a.m. moon licked streets in search of Buddha
singing Moloch! life has brought in the sheaves
protestants in Goth black and circling tambourine eyes
gathering along fuzzy red velvet sofas
holding hands and dousing chaotic incantations
baristas handing out headless cappuccinos
making ways into grumbling lattes for nervous babies
and heavy metal chests rattling in tin can hearts
listening with ears to winds like shards of broken glass in a windstorm
silently flattering the panting of the Wolf
where the tongue will always keep the ears deaf
devising ideals to row out of the Loch of Ness revealed
and revelate to this machinery of mankind
to sickly remedy our unconscious mind volta
keeping the SwagManthology rolling above ground
to keep myself from being rolled beneath it
the ripening stagnancy of decomposing hangover ghosts
and like all Saturdays of succubus
uncuring in cancerous tumor of daybreak
left sucking bone for life and molten marrow
scrawny and unwilling to be removed Eternal
succumbing to plowing under new roots
with aging seedlet rind eyes
re-sodding for some other rising of Boneflower up through stone
writing in a new sick language to masturbate for themselves
whether be it in offices in a fourteenth floor
where they eventually throw or are thrown from
or inside corpses of empty bourbon bottles
where an undertow is rolling them sadly beneath her sour mash tongue
coming to necessary end and myopic refraction
to an inevitable blinding
to degeneration and millenia of abandoned festering
this truth remains i don’t remember menstruating through my twenties
in fragments of broken alternative radio
or writhing under rose oiled fishnetted thighs
staring at negroes still being beaten and chinese making me soup
with buried headstones for parent and suicidal urn for jewelry box
i don’t remember those things and bid them gone
they can haunt some other Smoking Tomb of crypt
i am releasing them to dirt, or air, or shallow ditch of a grave
with a crackerjack spade i cover their severed limbs
leaving respite to open wind and dim forgetting
abstracting their thoughtless little minds
into colorful crayons of chimeric chickabiddy
i am abandoning them to small glass petris in introspection
of a million dying fireflies of inhuman star brittle
leaving unstitched and loosely strung
as if worn out toys in closing apocolyptic toybox
i am severing useless arms from sacks uncarried
in THfUMP of bastardizing disrobe
sutchering scar with twine of Nevermore
unscreening back porches of wild dingos
for a nighttime Hitchhiker to gather
as a raven, a negroid, an anvil or a fist
and to butcher their barking bone with open sore
leaving this piece of sarcophagus prose this year
for worms to feed for a thousand more
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